even if i could reach the sky i couldn't reach you.
no matter if i stretched myself to stand on the very edge
i couldn't grasp your vapors as they blow past my dried eyes.
there's a way that you make my heart beat that has me
panicking.
i don't know how to respond
i don't know how to chart something that isn't
chaos.
i don't know how to answer when someone tells me they love me.
all i know how to do is laugh.
(no one tells the truth anyway.)
i can only watch your world from the outside
and maybe sometimes i can dip my feet in it but i
can't hold you.
there's a wall between us that no matter how thing it gets
i can still see it
i can still ******** feel it as you walk away.
i've sacrificed warm nights under blankets to hold you.
i've looked betrayal in the eye and still pulled the curtain aside
so i could share your atmosphere.
maybe i haven't tried carving my veins out
and maybe i haven't wetted my clothes with that traitorous
liquid coming from the loneliest part of me
but i've felt what it's like for you to hold me
for you to love me
and somehow that's worse.
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