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One realization at a time:

- I'm a hopeless romantic that never fails to try and find love in all the wrong places with all the wrong people: Thought a guy was interested but I was just a distraction from the mother of his child(not that they were actually together). It was one of those "to-good-to-be-true" situations then I figured out why. Dated a guy before that for a month and some change. Turns out he didn't want much and once he got what he wanted he was gone. I tried to claim a guy that was only there to mess around and I knew that much..because we agreed on it. I guess I just got so lonely..

- "Everything is messed up nowadays. It used to be acceptable to get used to someone before you screw them; If I like you THEN we'll smash, right? Now it's if I get feelings after I smash it's one sided or it must be real, you must be the one."

I have always been taught that sex is both a binding and bonding experience..I don't understand how some people can just have sex to have sex and NOT get attached. I try to do the same thing and I get attached and not even mean a word of it..Does that make me a bad person? Am I still confused about what I assume love is?