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so much to do, so little time, so little energy lol

lately i seem to have become much more active in the world, going t the zoo, loving my fiance, riding bikes, going up north, working on the lake, missing my fiance sooo extremely much, worrying about her when she has a back ache and i cant help =(

grrr i want to give her a back massage Dx

its got to be the worst thing in the world, knowing your loved one, the one you love with all your heart, with everything you are, who you share everything with, is in pain and you cant help her because of the distance between =( and this distance cant be closed with travel unfortunatly it is a distance of trust between her mother and me

she seems to be teasing me alot more lately lol, everything i say ends up putting me in some kind of trouble lol because it could be taken a different way xD she says im to easy, i think shes just very good at it ^^

id love to see her but she thinks its to risky to see me so much, i guess once a week is a bit much but the fact that our 1 year anniversary is coming up makes me want to spend even more time with her then usual, at the same time all these activities are wearing me out, so much so that all i want to do is sleep at the end of the day (9pm or 10 pm xD) a grr, but thats alot of the time my only window to be able to talk with her, and thats important to me too, in fact its the most important thing to me, giving her attnetion and love as she deserves, but its difficult sometiimes, especially when shes so far away, and not in my arms

ive been eating alot better though, used to be id not even touch vegetables or fruits, now im trying fruits, vegies, chicken, milk, etc all this healthy stuff

ugggggh its going to be a long week but totally worth it mwahahaha i have a surprise in store for the 7th, its hard keeping it a secret but its necessary!

ugguuuu exhaustedness lol ill sleep well tonight for sure, but not until ive satisfied the love of my life ^^