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as long as i can remember i was told i was soft spoken, and had a gentle heart, sometimes i prided myself on this, othertimes i was resentful of these traits.

i get ideas in my head about talking back, when im being yelled at i too want to shout, but shouting leads to more shouting, eventually id just be another kink in the chain of hatred.

ive gone through alot as a child, what made me so soft spoken, so gentle? i believe it was what i witnessed. as a child i was yelled at alot, i was hyper, and irresponsible, in the real world id get hurt and hurt others though unintentionally. id be yelled at and scorned, i hated when people yelled, as if i couldnt hear their hatred and anger through normal toned voices as well as when they yelled.

talking to me always seemed a better solution, just calmly speak your mind and i can listen without fearing your screams or hatred. whats worse is when people yell and insult you. calling people nameslike dumb *** or stupid or idiot or incompetent, if your told these things enough times you will take their form. it like commercials. they take up 10% of our brain capacity. you may disagree but it is the truth. were forced to listen to adds somuch nearly every american can recite the mcdonalds sing along, or the subway eat fresh logo. maybe even the kohls catch phrase.

the point is, yelling is unnecessary, unless your yelling for help,or yelling acrossed the room it shouldnt be necessary. talking can solve problems yelling just makes them worse. and ive always hated yelling just as ive always hated drama, though my highschool days are long behind me and ive yet to face any drama in college =)