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i guess i really wasnt good eough for her, she said forever and always and then this,
she broke up with me because im a little rude, and clinging to her in public, i guess i can see if i were like a major jerk to people, but breaking up with someone because you interrupt a friend while there talking? everyone does that, and clinging onto her, if she didnt like it she could have said so, and why is it a bad thing to cling to your lover in public, it just means your not afraid to show your affections for them, im not sure what shes thinking, but this isnt at all what i want, my heart still belongs to her, even though i wake up facing the pain of a beating heart to a lover who is no longer returning those feelings. ive told her my plan, im not sure if she'll accept or deny it, i cant predict the future after all. everyone says we were good together, no matter who i talked too.

i dont understand, she said "im a keeper" her friends said "hang onto him" she said "forever and always" and yet here i am alone again. the issues she broke up with me for, all could have been talked over. id like to discuss this more with her, i do not want to lose someone i hold so dear to my heart. so im waiting a year and 3 months, and if before then or on her next birthday she decides to give me the chance, i wont mess it up but idk lol i know how stubborn she can be, i personally think her mom and grandma saying it enough times made her start seeing things that arent there.

everyone says i have a gentle heart, i guess being gentle and kind isnt enough anymore