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well it seems death has decided it is too good for me, and the creator wont grant me my wish of leaving this hell of which i am stuck in for now. so i guess the best thing i can do is fight on with what i believe in. but at what cost am i willing to make to have what i believe known? why in this world we must give something up to gain something.....it is depressing no matter what it is....we have to choose between it and something else we like and we cant change what we do sometimes. why is this so, why must one die so the other may live and define there being through said persons death?
now i am at the road that i dare not even tread....i hate it, the very fact that it is here brings so much pain to me.....why must i live on and not ever die? why am i stuck here to be tormented as i see others slip off into death and finally be able to sleep with out disruption? what the hell makes them so damn high and mighty? i am stuck with depression as i see so many that i have come to love die...why can i not join them? i heard live isnt fair and its not right but this is a little over kill....but i will continue. this is not the live i wanted...but i will live it until i die.