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So it's been....awhile since I used this thing for any sort of update. To busy pulling smut out my...well you get the idea. Anyways, I'm mostly just writing this as I had gotten some rather surprising news today that one of our local customers, has passed away the other day. Now, I knew this woman, somewhat, an older woman, Joyeuse. I'm not sure if that's how her name is spelled but I'm going to use it. And truth be told, no one at my work liked this woman. She was always rude, very condescending, and treated us like we were bellow her. I didn't like her, didn't like how she treated us with such disrespect.

Yet, despite all that, it's just surprising to hear that it's possible she was alone. Again I know nothing about this woman outside of what I saw when she came into my work. Only one of my coworkers was 'friends' with this woman. Not even she was saddened by the news, but she was, just like everyone else surprised. I don't know if she had family, or any real friends with a attitude like that but it makes you wonder. Just who she was deep down, had she always been so unpleasant. There were some she sat with that, seemed okay with her.

The only thing I can think of is, I don't want to be that person. The type that once the shock wears off, not many of us are going to miss her. That alone is a scary thought. To distances yourself to a point where your own death means little to those around you. I'm sure a few people will go to her funeral. I know I won't be one of those people, still...it really makes you reflect on the people you have around you and how much they really care about someone when all they do is surround themselves in such a negative light.

Don't be that person, don't be that person that one day looks up and realizes you got no one at your side. There's a better outcome in this world than that. Many people may not think it's worth it. But when you go and no one bats an eye, maybe you lived your life in the wrong direction. Smile, love the people around you, make sure those around you know how much they mean to you. Go out and do something that might not seem like much, but means the world to others. Reach out, it's the holidays, it's the perfect time to do so. We all lose people, I've lost family, friends, a loved one, it's not easy. But don't go out where the only memory you leave behind is an unpleasant one because it'll only make it easier for people to forget you.