I’m having to take 8+ pills and vitamins just to stay healthy. I’m having to drink protein shakes and s**t.
I went to my parents to tell them that I am concerned about my health and that I needed help and they tuned it around that they were worried for me and that I was a horrible child for not eating.
I don’t even know how they did that. I asked for money to buy food and they said, “YOU NEED TO EAT MORE, YOU DON’T TRY HARD ENOUGH, YOU ARE UNHEALTHY AND IT’S A SHAME, YOU’RE TOO SKINNY, HOW DO PEOPLE EVEN LOVE YOU WHEN YOU’RE KILLING YOURSELF, YOU’RE JUST BEING WEAK BY NOT EATING, YOU NEED TO STOP BLAMING YOUR MOTHER ABOUT YOUR DISORDER”
That…. didn’t make me feel any better about myself.
And instead of helping me the way that I know I need help, they just put me on a bunch of pills and vitamins.
I’m pretty sure that dealing with this stupid ******** eating disorder, and pulling myself through one, that I know what I ******** need to prevent it. But ******** thank you for not listening to me and pretending to be good parents after not even being involved ******** once through all these five years.
Jesus.
 Purple Sky Painter · Sun Sep 08, 2013 @ 04:08pm · 0 Comments |
