nothing happens anymore....
I gave away my heart AGAIN, and got it stripped AGIAN.
I wonder to myself "is this really worth it?"
is it worth losing the trust of my parents, the last of my frineds?
do i need friends when my parents despise them?
there I look to the egde of the earth for one dream.
there it is, my fantasy, my dream, my vision.
I wake up to MOWE
MOWE and only MOWE.
blood, laughter, isolation.
trapped in a house of kids, I really cant leave the house
without fooling myself.
life is tough, and I land myself in the mud
more times than I can find a moment to breath.
in isolation I play the rythm of a sad song.
darling Sarah, come to me.
PROVE YOU EXIST.
all of my poetry
all of my music
all of my training
all of my worthless projects
all of my pain
all of my work
all of my reasoning to live
all of my my limited skill
all of myself leads
to the one answer I have been searching
for
there at the egde of all obsticales
passed the gates of hell
and the temple of retrebution
and the seas of poseidon,
and hungry men!
and struggle!
and pain!
and slaughter!
and lies!
THERE LIES!!!!!!!
"...I do."
but...
were there to be such a dream come true
if the man were incompatable for what's in store?
could you not stick metal in a microwave,
and expect a full corse meal?
could any significant soul be able to bear
such a person. ...maybe a FREAK?
a GEEK?
a SOUL EATER?
a CANNIBLE?
a DEMON?
in guilty SHOES?
a DEPRESSED HUMAN BEING?
a WRETCH?
a SHADOW?
a COMPUTER?
mabye on meth, but I sure wouldnt.
this is MOWE, I havent found a cure for me
I havnt had any rehab for my habits
but I will always have that one vision stuck in my head
until I can scoop my mind out of the dirt
I will continue the journey
passed the obstacles
passed the gates of hell....
passed those halls of retrebution...
into atlantis...
giving up what I have left to starving men...
the struggle...
the pain ...
the hate ...
the lies...
until at the feet of mercy
will I find victory.
and my dreams will no longer be playing in my head
instead, I will be living every single one of them...
is it worth it? is it worth my disire, if I lose my own soul in the process?
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