Gosh... I'm entering rising stars of manga, which, if you don't know, is a contest where you draw a 15 page manga and turn it in. There are 8 winners chosen, and those winners receive a cash prize and a chance to pitch a storyline idea to the "higher ups" of manga. So basically this is a contest that can start any good manga-ka's career. If you didn't know, I want to be a manga artist. I just don't know if my entry is good enough. The storyline can't be better, it's a real tear-jerker, but I'm not positive about the quality of art. The pencil version was awesome, but I can't turn in pencil. The inked version is okay, but when I add toner I can see so many mistakes I made. It's due the 13th, and I am being rushed to finish it. I have so much more to do. I really want to win, but I'm not sure if I'm good enough yet. If I'm not good enough, then all my time has gone to waste. I hope I can get a career in manga drawing, but if I must, I have to go to an art school. I hope it doesn't come to that. I want to learn languages, not art. I'm so afraid of losing, it's overbearing. I really just want to cry right now. It's tearing me up. I can't handle it. I just want to go shred my manuscript right now and get it over with, but i can't. I hate it. I know I don't need to fear, but I can't help it. The strange thing is I still have hope that I will win. I can win... I just need to tell myself that. I also need to tone 4 pages every night till the contest deadline to get it finished by then. Oh well, comment if you wish. I will definitely enjoy some comments. They will take my mind off things for a little.
 haruki_jitsunin · Mon Jan 09, 2006 @ 06:44am · 0 Comments |
