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I was super pissed off at my father earlier for yelling at me about him waiting in the parking lot for 15 minutes. I had been expecting my mother to pick me up at 4:00 so I thought I had another half an hour. GOD FORBID HE WAIT A MINUTE OR 2! Then my mother! I asked her for help with a paper for a teacher I hate. Where I thank her for helping she makes me change the thing it was about!

There was this figure I really liked but she made me change. FOR HEAVENS SAKE I JUST AKED HER TO STOP MESSING WITH MY POWERPOINT! BUT SHE WON'T LISTEN TO ME! NO ONE IN MY FAMILY LISTENS TO ME! THE ONLY ONES THAT DO ARE MY BROTHERS AND DOG. AND MY BROSTHERS TELL ME TO STFU AND MY DOG BITES ME! I swear im all alone in this house...which now that I reallllly think into to it, is why I wanted a relationship.

Its something I can have that no one in my family can change, and its someone that (I hope) will listen to me. Listen to me and reassure me that im not boreing them to death. Someone just to hug me, or I can call when I get upset. Just someone to be there, and agree with what ever the hell I say untill I can think rationally, and correct it. Someone to have just a comfortiable silence with, becuase other then crap in my life im not an intresting person.

Someone to just....get me

God just getting it all out into this journal unleashed the tears....god damn hormones...Something is wrong with me I just know it. Now im not saying my life sucks. I know some people who have it worse then me. That still doesn't stop me from wanting a relationship.....
O-k Im feeling better, again cookie don't bother to mention this just like the other one.

*Later*
HE JUST WON'T LISTEN! WHY CAN'T MY DAD JUST LISTEN! WHY CAN'T ANYONE JUST LISTEN! WHY CAN"T ANYONE JUST LISTEN TO ME IN THIS HOUSE AND NOT TELL ME TO SHUT THE HELL UP! WHY! WHY WHY!?! My god Im crying so much. Sometimes I relish in the knowledge that they are going to kick me out asap. Due to my bros overstaying thier welcome (their old enough to have a life but they still live here). Ive been so sheltered though...im scared...they can't understand that...they have sheltered me so much that Ive only ever ridden a bus twice in my life....how am I susspoed to survive in the real world? where there are such cold hearted people who will take advantage of me? Im so scared im crying so hard right now....Ill have no one for protection...thats what scares me the most

*few minutes later*
I just need to laugh and The Colbert Report is on so ill feel better soon...I also put all this emotion toward my fanfiction...and stop my eyes from being puffy