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To anyone who actually reads this don't take this to heart...Im just kinda random rambleing now

Question: Whats it like to be in love?
Its such a simple question but a complicated answer. I always wondered what it would be like to be in love, that warm fuzzy feeling, or those butterflys in the stomich. I want to know how it would feel for me. Ive been only able to read fanfiction about it and wish that maybe it might turn out like that. I know its never perfect but that doesn't mean I still don't want to try. Id help me in my writeing becuase I always try to place my self in the characters shoes, in order to get the emotion down. So far though 4 people I told I love
#1 Mutual breakup
#2 got hacked, made a new account and moved on (don't blame him but I was still a little sad, couldn't be helped)
#3 He left gaia and has not returned yet
#4 same as three
I noticed when I tell them this they seem to never get on gaia again xD so if I tell you I love u I bet ur not going to be on for a longggggg while. I hate this becuase then i pm someone when I FINALLY see them on, and I just feel so overbearing. I just put a lot of blame on my self for things when they go wrong, becuase most of the time I think thats right.....I have no clue where in going with this so cookie if you read this just don't ask me about it at school o-k? or here...its just a rant I guess...thats what the journals for