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To those of you who don't know what my personality's like... i'm normal-ish. Just a bit odd in any kind of situation (I'll be a bit shy-ish).
But the real problem is I get angry fast. And I fail at self-control. I lash out. Dx
Then after lashing out I regret everything and get depressed.
And actually... I make contact if I'm going to lash out. i hurt people physically. Hell, if I had a weapon when I was mad whoever pissed me off would likely get seriously hurt.
I dunno why, but a part of me doesn't want to change and become an actual normal person who can show emotion without going on a rampage. It's not hormones. I've been like this since 4th grade.
I'm worried one day I'm either going to get arrested for assault, or I'm going to hurt someone close to me or maybe I'll hurt someone then drop into depression so far that I kill hurt myself seriously and be done with trying to fight the world.[/rant]
People care about me, I know that. I care about some people. They know that.
I just become 'deaf to reason' when angry.