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The Up:

During tonight, there was loud, rock music playing outside, while they were shooting off fireworks. I danced and bobbed my head for about a hour and a half, (with people watching) and was totally rocking ^_^

I felt so beautiful and delighted that night.

The Down(s):

This guy who I liked (whom I just met today) named Jacob, was walking into the house. I wanted a chance to talk to him, (man-lureing). ;D

...so I went inside, (abandoning my dance) and his sister (jacob's sister) was there, and she, like, lurves me, soo yeah. She was jumping at the chance to talk to me, and I was like ehhhhhh. (because i wanted to talk to Jacob) anyway, i started teasing with her, and she teased with me, we played that game when we were starting a battle like "ooh, your face" then "ohhh, your BUTT." then "ohhh, your... ARM" ect, ect. Then jacob jumps into the convo, and im like k... then later he says to me, "well... your hair is rinkly, like... a donut!" then that hurt me. (i dipped my hair in the kiddie pool earlier, i was hawt from dancing)

and i was embarrassed from jacob's comment. I went on the top of the hill (outside) and curled in my blanket and cried =( (i get very emotional if someone insults how i look/my body) then i thought i heard the guys (dads) in the distance calling my name, and i didnt know what i did wrong. i was just lying on the lawn o_O?

so, i saw my mom laughing, so i nervously went up to her and asked what was wrong.

it turns out that the dudes were calling for Sarah, this chick, to turn the noise down on the music thingy.

i was sooo embarrassed. then i went inside, and now im typing this. and trying to keep a blank face, so that people don't notice my emotion right now ><;;;

comments/pms/sympathy would be nice <3 i lurv to talk about stuff like this =/

and i really do think i'm beautiful! I thought I had jacob liking me for awhile... I bet he just got jealous of my dance moves and started to be mean >=DDD

(during the little "fight", he said "your dance moves got a little lame during the end, huh?" then I said 'YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS!" then he was like heh... then I said "yeah, you can't argue with a LADY!"

also, he keeps calling me "woman". (even though im not... YET) like, he says "what's your problem, woman!?" or "what you doin', woman?" I think of it as sort of a compliment... but i guess he lost interest in me now, or something.

he's standing right thurr on teh couch. what should i do?