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it is late and i can't sleep there is so much to think .. write about


i received something today
i don't know what to think
my vision blurred from when i opened the note
driving to work and working was hard
i made a promise not to say a word the last day we spoke
no matter how much i have wanted to break it
i keep my word for i respect that much
so these words spin in my head
little secret messages never seem to be enough
but i thought it best to stay away for i was the one causing the problems
since that day so long ago my life has paused
you may see my smiles but they cover something worse
for every good there is a bad
i can't be happy without being depressed
what i want is to be whole again.. to know happiness
a chunk of me is missing
messing up isn't always the problem it is admitting you were wrong
i know i have been.. i just couldn't stand by and watch
to think i gave up that easy shows my fault not yours..
you make mistakes but you learn how to fix them .. not avoid them
you still have so many chances to think you wouldn't see them
if you would take the time to notice i haven't left
being afraid of you returning, thinking you were better off without me
the ending says it all .. forever is the truth