i'm burning cds right now with my buddy. ok. jason. i'm suppose to go eat lunch w/ him on monday but its not going to happen. i dont think we have the same lunch. that kinda sux. i really like him. but it sucks cuz i dont think he likes me. someone says that he does. but dont know. he is the one that agreed to go to lunch w/ me. Why would you agree to go to lunch w/ someone who you dont like? who knows. Ben. i still like him. i dont think i should. hes kinda an a*****e. cuz we were going out for 2months and he dumps me exactly on our 2nd month anniv. but what pisses me off the most is the lame gay excuse he gave me. son of a b***h has a heart problem right so he says that he has to leave me cuz he wants to be with a bunch of other people before he dies......his heart problem is not that bad. why......i asked him if its anything i did. he said no. yeah right. he was just getting bored. he said that he need variety. what ever i think he thinks he is a pimp.i think he is a retarded monkey. but i still want him. WTF is that? how can i still want him. we had sex. 2 weeks before we broke up. but we might as well of broke up after that cuz he kept talking about "seperating" why seperate.....he had no reason. no real reason. loads of people say that he used me. why would he use me? i dont understand. we were doing fine.... in my opinion. in his .....well i think that his opinion is deranged. i dont understand. i went over and asked him if he still likes me. he said he did and that he plans on asking me out. idk if i want to go back out with him. he is a ******** looser. i like jason. but i cant completly get off of ben.....idk what it is about him. but yeah i dont know. ben will lose me if i go out with jason. i wont want ben back if i go out w/ jason. i guess i shouldnt care. whats more is that i thought i was pregnant. he still didnt get back with me. i was late for my period. which scared the s**t out of me finally i got a test and it came out negative THANK YOU GOD I did not want to have a kid from that jackass. cuz everytime i look at that kid it would remind me of everything. but anyways i called him and told him i wasnt pregnant he was happy.....he also said......"thats good now you dont have an excuse for an attachment for me" WTF EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT I LOVE YOUR STUPID a**!!!!!!why the ******** do i love him? "well at least no physical attachment" what do you mean by that "well you still have your emotional attachment" WHY DONT YOU CARE ABOUT ME????!!!!!! thats why i had sex with him cuz i loved him. and i thought he felt the same. i knew that it wouldnt last forever. but c'mon. i dont know. he wanted a break. domokun what ever. stressed
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