i think i ruining my relationship with my dad. I think it was better when we lived In bobbleheadville. I mean over there he just ignored me. That is way better than what we are doing now. Now every convo we have has to envolve fighting. i hate it. scream It doesnt help that i got a boyfriend when i was 14, something that my dad didnt want me to get till i was 16. So that didnt help. Then we moved to Nowheresville and i wasnt very happy about that...infact i got on everyones nerves w/ my kicking and screaming. And i still complain about living here and i've lived here for 10 months. Well anyways shortly after we moved here my dad went to Iraq so we didnt talk and everytime he got on line it was always...Wheres your mom.....Let me talk to your mom. It was like he didnt to talk to me at all. i hated it. but i got use to it. when he came back from iraq 8 months later....he was nice for a couple of weeks but then he just seemed to provoke me to fight w/ him. He knows very well if he says something to me about anything about me or my friends, sister, school, mom....anything...i defend my self. He takes that as a talking back so i get grounded and in trouble. I always seem to fall into that trap. I have prayed to God so may times that he grant me patients w/ my dad and help me understand him. But God seems to not be checking his messages....so i dont know what going to happen next. I keep insuling him and i dont know what is going to happen in my future. I mean will he want to talk to me when i'm married w/ kids? What am i doing w/ this?
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