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Why can’t I just get out of here? I want to wake up so badly, I feel sad but happy still because I still had someone who cared right? Or was the person who just helped my just in my mind? Now it’s starting to get dark. I hear a noise that sounds like a street lamp turning on, a lot of them and I see them and I see railing lining the road I walk, I looks decrypted and unused. I go over to the rail and lightly touch it and as my hand approaches it I can feel the cold bars and take my hand back a second before I touch it. Then I see another person, and I laugh at myself this dream is starting to repeat. But now this person looks like me. And then I see him he is in black and white outfit just like mine and same swords I have on. The heaviness lifted and was replaced with weakness suddenly I felt so tired and weak, I draw my ten ten and prepare to defend but I drop to my knees and blood starts to drizzle out of my mouth and my stomach….am I going to die here? No!! No I will not die here!! I pull my misiou out and strike something hard, really hard and it sticks in. I use that as leverage to get also as an aid because of the pain and look at the person and it looks like me, but the exact opposite. Right down to the color he was black, completely black as though someone took a picture of me and left it as a negative. I look in horror the blood is the same, and I see myself look so relived, as though I lifted a great weight off him and then he slowly falls it appears that time has almost stopped it is getting harder and harder to breath and then he falls and time speeds back to normal and I feel all the pain both his and mine and I almost faint my eyes turn blue, as though the iris had grown and the pupil had disappeared but I can still see and I see my face and its saddening to see me die like this and then I fall on to his body and he melts into me and I faint.

I wake up in a strange looking house on a bed that is not mine and I wonder how the hell did I get here. And then I sit up and I feel my chest is wet and I touch it, blood is over the palm of my hand. Then I hear someone at the door and reach for my katana and its not there it is propped up against the corner and then a woman walks in with a tray, the tray has medical items on it and she is dressed in just a white dress. She has short dark hair and a pretty, so young and slender she looks. Finally she walks up to me and I try to move but cant she light touches my head and I feel so relaxed I almost fall back to sleep but stay up and then she undress my wound and cleans it as she is doing that I feel nothing and I ask her what is her name was and she didn’t answer just looked and smile and that was good enough as soon as I got my strength back would leave. Then the sun came in and I saw that it was still snowing and sighed, how long will it snow and further more how long will I dream. Then dread fell upon me…what if…what if this wasn’t a dream?? What if this was not a dream and was real?!?! Then I get up to find my cloths and weapons and leave. As I left the room I found out I was on the road. I almost fall out of the door, it was like there was suppose to be a step there, but I catch myself before hit the ground. Then sadness completely takes me over, I was in a house and there was a girl there and I left it to be on this damn road?!?! I start to run, run as fast I can down this road and I finally see another door I feel tears of joy and I open the door running though it not looking back. I am out of that damned area and can go on with what I want to do, but then…I notice the door closed and I can never go back in there and see the wooded area or see the girl again and I cry. I will try to find out how I got there and why even if it ends my live.