Well. Recently I have noticed the slow return of passion to me. Not only passion in the love way, but passion in everything I do...err...maybe minus school work.
Anyway I have been able to write poetry again, also sing with a fire in me and the return of how I used to think has taken place as well. I can now look on things with a deep and meaningful view. I can see the deeper more philosophical side of things again.
However, with the good also comes the bad it seems. For I have also noticed a rising return in my anger problems. My anger problems have never been directed at those I care about, I have control of that part of myself completely. However I have never had trouble with causing myself harm in my anger.
An example of this would be my lack of patience with my computer of late. This doesn't just include the normal swearing fits one has at there computer because it isn't doing things the way it's meant to be. But includes me pretty much screaming my guts out in such a way that it sounds like the demons have escaped hell and are torturing me slowly, and includes me hitting solid objects. I did this recently so hard I managed to make my knuckles bleed rather badly. Yet I found it actually calmed me more then anything else. Freaky no?
Anyway, I have to go to bed now. So for you one person whom reads this (Yes I know your the only one whom reads this Rae, even if it is only a casual glance at times.) Goodnight.
Alastwr Community Member 
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