Today I was reading a fantasy book that I bought about a month ago from the yearly library book sale. I was becoming fully engrossed in the book and very much enjoying it, especially the love plot between one of the female characters and the male character. At least until it reached a certain point.
What happened was that the female character cheated on her love with a prince. In doing this she lost her virginity. She did this while her true love was far away. This brought about feelings in me that caused me to start weeping. I punched the book and tossed it over the other side of the room. Old feelings of pain and anguish that I though I had banished a few years ago came flooding back to me and have made me feel hurt inside once more. There is a reason for this.
The reason is that the situation in the book is frighteningly similar to a situation that took place in my life. I was the one who was far away. I can imagine the pain the man would feel when he returns to find the truth. Also it's similar in the fact that the female in the situation also lost her virginity in this affair. To make matters her lover, the man who is far away, can not to a thing about what has happened. He cannot take his anger out on the man whom took his love from him. All he can do is sit there, weep and let the pain tear him apart. He can also likely hope that in this case he can eventually move on. But I find that in that setting, I was that man, I would likely fling myself into battle in such a way that I would hope for death.
What the man is going to go through and what the situation is...it's just so similar to what happened to me that it brang back that pain. I find myself hurting inside again, and not knowing why. I wish I could banish this pain away, but I fear I cannot. I guess all I can do is attempt to live with it.
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