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So...... Yeah..... Having a moment... Of course its on my b-day.... To think its been 6 years and she never leaves my mind.... Exactly 6 years... Today.... I remember being scared to ask her to be my snuggle buddy.... We did snuggle... Then ended up... Well yeah.... All I could think that morning was how could someone like me end up in the eyes of her? Was it her blue hair? Was it her tattoos? Was it the way she played with her lip piercing because she was nervous? Those eyes.... ********, I think I miss the way she looked at me with those eyes..... Gave me shivers.... Hell, I just shivered thinking about it... I dont know... I was asked, "Whats your deal with love, you sound so bitter when people talk about their lovers." Whats my deal? Hmm, I used to believe in love.. I was the guy who'd waste his last dollar just to take a girl out for sushi...... Walk miles just to see her face... Used to... Over these few years, I've seen that people have killed "love" with ******** up ideas twisting it into a mangled form..... A cronenburge, if you will.... I uh.... I looked at her facebook.... I really should stop doing that... She's unhappy... And she's letting most of everybody know it... Nymm will swoop in... He does that... Highly heartless but at least he's there... I thought about returning... ******** that hell hole... If I want to be around s**t people, I might as well stay here... Yeah, I'm being emotional.... But at least I still have a smidgeon of a heart left.... ******** this feeling, I think I'll get wasted again tonight..... Hope I dont wake up behind a dumpster again..... Hahahaha, guess I'll leave you all with a song..... The one I sing to myself thinking about her.... I'll even add the movie I always end up crying about her over.... I'm such a loser hahahahaha