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Well, today's my birthday. I'm 19 years old now. And guess what? I'm still a trap!

I remember how worried I was during my 18th birthday, worried that this milestone of adulthood would affect me negatively. Thought that it was all downhill from here, and that I was going to turn masculine very quickly.

I remember, last year, on this very day, I was arguing with my mom. I wanted so badly for her to take me to a doctor. I wanted to talk to one, and get on an HRT. I'd even pay for it myself, no questions asked. However, she preferred to confuse me about "not knowing what I want" (even though I told her what I wanted) until I shut up. Back then, I considered my 18th birthday a failure, and cried myself to sleep.

Of course, the very next day, I ordered my first package of pueraria. I wasn't going to give up on being pretty just because mom didn't want to take me to a doctor. Pueraria may not have been the exact same thing as hormone therapy, but it was better than nothing. It promised that I could develop breasts from it increasing my estrogen levels.

For the past year, I was taking this every day. I had... moderate success. I actually had some real effects associated with HRT. But of course, I got scared of sterilizing myself, which I explained in my "medical turmoil" entry. Pueraria is just too good at its job.

And it seems that by keeping my t-levels lower than they would have been, I stayed androgynous throughout age 18. So many people thought I was a girl, even if I was still flat-chested. And of course, pueraria is also a great anti-aging supplement. I'm not even old yet, so imagine how young I'll look after taking this since early adulthood. I age very slowly anyway, so I've got a lot of youth to look forward to. Seems that as long as I get these pills, I can stay a trap forever. (I hope)

If anyone else wants to be a prettier girl, a trap, or just fight aging, I'd highly recommend buying their products. I'm not sponsored by them, but I really wanna keep their doors open. Because if they had not been there, I probably would have done something crazy. (ie: murder, suicide, etc)

Well, the main focus of this entry is this: I don't feel so bad about turning 19, as I did at 18. Just as long as I have my medicine, I'll be mostly ok.

But until then...

Be Right Back, World!