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There are many different aspects of myself that I dislike. I have always looked to others for approval and I have always been incredibly self-conscious. There is so many things that I do not like about myself. I am shy, awkward, self-conscious, I have marks on my stomach, I'm chubby, I'm tall, my hair is always a mess, I am needy, and so many other things. I'm tired of thinking that I'm not good enough. I have made the decision that I am no longer to look to others for approval. I am no longer going to look to others and listen to their remarks about me. I don't want to let what others think about me affect the way I think about myself.

There are many things that I don't like about myself, but there are some things that I actually do like about myself. I care about people and often put them before myself. I like that I won't give up on someone, no matter what they do to me or what they put me through. I like smiling. I like the color of my eyes when they are hit by the sun. I am starting to like myself.

I want to feel beautiful. I have a hard time feeling like that. I have a hard time looking at myself and feeling beautiful. Isn't that something that everyone truly wants to feel? I'm not going to let people bring me down anymore. I am no longer going to let people get the best of me. I am going to try my best to get over this shy faze. I'm going to try to believe in myself. I know I'm not perfect and I know I have flaws. But, all of those imperfections and each flaw that I have makes me who I am, and I don't think I would have it any other way.