God I hate that moment when you realize everything you do is apparently nothing at all I have been awake for almost two weeks now, with the occasional nap here or tjee, why have been awake? Because my mom made my daughter dependant on sleeping pills because she would rather medicate the issue than fix it. My mom says I don't give a s**t because I don't call every day. Kira glares me every time I ask her to do anything. I have been doing laundy nonstop for a week, I have barely eaten or drank anything. I collapsed yesterday and four days ago from exaustion and tonight I was so tired I didn't make dinner , so of course everyone notices that and all hell breaks loose. I am so ******** tired of trying to be perfect maybe the lump in my ARM and breast hopefully nothing. Because no one will allow me the time to see the doctor. I finally have Helyn back and everything is so tucked up arround here I wouldn't be surprised if she got worse. I am apparently worthless. Sorry I tried, sorry I exist...
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