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Luka heard all of their ideas and chuckled, "all good choices" he smiled and kissed Johnny's cheek when he he was kissed and laughed, "hey I've handled worse. My friend Yuri is a fire ball of energy" he said laughing. He then snuggled into Johnny and looked up at him, "So pizza and hot tub it gives us a chance to keep thinking of a movie" he said smiling. With that he got up and found the number to the pizza place and looked at everyone, "so what kind of pizzas?" he asked as he grabbed a pen and note book to write it down.
When everyone; in the same goofy way, told what they wanted Luka figured out how to set up the pizzas and then ordered. with that all done and he got the total and gave his address he hung up and went to his bag that had his wallet. he pulled out the amount and put it on the small table by the door under the menu so he knew what it was for. He then headed back to the Living room, "so shall we hit the hot tub? i just need to get back in my suit again" he said laughing. When they agreed he went into the half bathroom on the first floor quickly changed again, before walking out. He grabbed towels and lead them all outside to the hot tub; the pizza dude wouldn't be there for 45 mins which was enough time to relax.
Once everyone was out he put the towels on a near by chair and then turned on the jets. Luka then giggled, "everyone hope in. not literally but yeah" he then slipped in after them. ooh the water felt so wonderful and the jet behind his back was really helping. that and the warm water were helping his still broken ribs. He was so glad he thought of this he might never leave. He smiled at everyone and stretched, "so based on what everyone said I thought of, Drop dead Fred, Taken, underworld, the fifth element, or we can be really and goofy and watch a Disney movie like the lion king" he said laughing. he liked some horror movies but he didn't want to cause faith to be jumpy. he laid his head on Johnny's shoulder and looked up at him threw his bangs, "have any to add?" he asked wondering if johnny thought of some.
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Johnny shook his head vaguely at his friends, before feeling the soft lips of Luka. His green eyes slide to look at him before watching the younger boy laugh. ”If that is the case and she really is worse, I’m afraid to meet her.” Johnny let out a soft laugh, and watched as Luka snuggled into his body, Johnny’s arms moved around the boy and he smiled, ”Sounds like a plan, this might take a while…” Looking up to his friends stilling have a hushed argument of what movie would be best for the night. But still Johnny wore a smile on his face because even though they were dorks he loved them more than he could explain, they were his family. When Luka moved away from him Johnny watched and couldn’t believe that Luka thought asking them for what kind of pizza was a good idea, Luka was just to cute.
The group stopped fighting over a move and turned toward Luka, they stood there for a moment considering the almost endless varies that they could come up with. Zack and Faith had shrugged, and they all sighed coming to a conclusion. ”I speak for all of us when I say, let’s keep it simple, pepperoni and sausage.” It was quiet for a few minutes before Zack opened his mouth as well, ”But what about ham? Poor ham can’t be left out…” Faith smacked her head, unbelieving to the fact that they could have an argument about pizza as well, ”Who cares about the ham, what about bacon?” Sean and Lissa said that at the same time, looking at each other before sharing a cute smile and Sean wrapped his arm around her neck. Johnny only shook his head and then kissed Luka’s cheek softly before saying, ”I’ll settle this, how many pizza’s will there be?” After Luka told him, Johnny got some pizza’s that were meat lovers which the whole group loved, and the whole ordeal got settled.
When the mention of Hot Tub came, everyone at first was really excited; they waited for Luka to come back, as they followed him to the backyard of his house. Everyone got undressed again, to where they were only in their swimsuits and piled into the hot tub, sinking into the warmth of the water. Johnny slipped in next to Luka of course, everyone was with the person that they loved either holding hands or cuddled. Chelsea had her legs over Neil’s and her back against the tub, both comfortable and happy. While Zack and Faith where holding hands under the water as her legs where crissed cross, and Zack’s free arm was over the edge. Lissa was leaning into Sean and relaxing just as much as he was. Everyone seemed to be in bliss, in this world, a world with people that Johnny knew, it didn’t feel so wrong and weird to be with Luka, it felt normal, he flashed back to the beach and wondered if he could ever be able to handle the relationship. Could he really not care what people said about him? Could he stand the questions that would be asked at a press conference? Could he handle the pressures of it? Would they believe that he wasn’t gay? That Luka was the only boy that he would ever like?
He was snapped out of it when Luka laid his head on Johnny’s shoulder; it caused him to look around wondering what he had just missed. The hum of talk, most of them leaning towards underworld, but loving the movie Taken as well. But in the mention of Lion King everyone decided that was the movie to watch, Johnny looked down at Luka, beautiful, and not a girl, a smile came to his face, ”I’m liking the sound of Lion King myself, I have nothing to add it seems final.”
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Luka laughed and nodded about the movie, "sounds good! We can go down memory lane" he said giggling. with that comment Faith asked about the 20 question game and why he stopped it after he answered and the look he had. Luka bit his lip when he heard her question and rubbed his arm again, "I-i-it was because of something that happened to me when I was 6" he said and felt his heart race with fear. he noticed everyone looked confused yet worried wondering what could have happened. He wondered if he should tell them what happened. he only met them a couple of times, yet they acted and made him feel as if he knew then forever. it would be nice to tell someone about it other then Yuri.
Deciding to tell them he sighed and bit his lip some. he then fiddled with the strings of his suit, "When I was 6, Me and my mom were walking to the store to get cough medicine for my sister since she was sick again. I wasn't holding my moms hand and was looking at everything." he started and looked down for a bit. he was trying to control himself from crying. he looked back up and continued, "I had saw a dollar on the ground and stopped to pick it up with out letting my mom know, so she kept walking. I wasn't far form her though.
Just as I picked up the dollar, some guy grabbed me and held me tight. Before i could do anything, he put a cloth on my mouth and i blacked out. no one was around to see it happen. When I woke up I was in a really broken down room. there was a bed and the window was covered by boards so little light was coming from it." his breathing got a but heavy as he continued still fiddling with the strings on his suit only a bit more. he wasn't looking at them any more. he was looking at the water.
"I was so scared and confused. I started crying and went to the door to try and get out. Someone must have heard me because the guy who took me came in. He was smiling and he spoke to me, I don't remember what he said. After he grabbed me and put me on the bed. He told me to be good and that he wouldn't hurt me. I didn't know what was going on, but i was scared so i fought and cried trying to get a way." another pause as tears started to form. finally talking about it really brought it back.
"He then rapped me... when he was done, he told me I was a good boy and that we'd have more fun. he then left me on the bed and I heard the door lock. I started crying again. I hurt so bad and I wanted my mom and dad. after a couple of hours he came back and did it again. I kept fighting and he said the more i fight the more he'll hurt me. after a few hours of him hurting me and raping me again i stopped fighting. I did as he asked me to do. He then said I was a good boy for behaving. he then left and when he came back i sat on the bed not wanting to get hurt. he then gave me something to eat." tears now fell as he kept looking at the water as if he was watching it happen. he took a deep breath and looked at them again
"this went on every day for a two weeks. he'd come in give me something, he'd have his way with me and then head out till he came back with dinner. I didn't have lunch only breakfast and dinner. after about two weeks he started having me do things. I fought because i didn't want to and the same thing happened. he'd beat me and hurt me till I stopped fighting and did it anyway. so then his times with me got worse. he called it a game that we were playing. a special game. a month went by and he brought in others. he said i had to play the game with them. if I didn't he'd hurt me. I didn't want to get hurt again so i did... this went on for two months of him and others. I was finally found after the third month or so. I didn't know time. just how to count days. I was so under weight from him barely feeding me. I was so pale and dirty. I was dehydrated. I spend a little while in the hospital after it." he finally finished as he felt tears falling down his cheek. he finally told the whole story. he finally confessed. and right now all he wanted to do was cry. He was shaking and he had to look down to scared to see their reactions mostly Johnny's.
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Johnny watched Luka carefully, his green eyes turning serious at the change of his voice, he was all ears. Then the story began, listening to the story, Johnny felt himself getting irritated, not at Luka at the story. This would obviously be a story that he would not like, and would go back to jail for. However, Johnny kept that to himself, no need getting tackled by everyone. So instead, the singer just let it stir, but as it went on, listening to Luka being knocked out and dragged to a place that Luka didn’t know. But the more that Luka talked, he heard the breathing of Luka getting heavier, that it was obvious it was hard for him.
All that the man saw was a young boy alone, feeling scared, not knowing anything familiar around him; his thoughts were confirmed. Luka started crying, and couldn’t get out, he was trapped, but the point of getting real pissed was the moment Luka talked about getting pushed onto the bed. How many people would he have to kill in order for people to get the hint? Did he have to switch caress and instead become a super assassin in the middle of the night; he would. His hands moved underneath the water, his hands turned into a fist that was biting into Johnny’s skin. But on his face, he looked perfectly calm, but slowly it was breaking the moment tears started to come to his eyes. It took all of Johnny’s might, to lift his hand, and make it look natural to whip away the forming tear before putting it back in the water, gripping it together all again.
Something inside of him started to crack; the one guy that he liked had been rapped when his childhood should have been great; though it might explain a few things. But it was as if lava was now slowly feeling up his body up to the fuse. Every time that Luka said that man came back and rapped him again, the lava grew; even worst so when Luka stopped fighting. By now, his nails were slowly breaking the skin, his breathing remained somewhat calm, his eyes still staring at Luka. Johnny let out soft breaths, and made them even and slow. Johnny wasn’t going to make it through anymore of this, pretty soon he would have to get out, and take a walk. A very long, long walk. The final straw was learning it was two weeks, the lava was up to his nose and he was drowning in anger. Nope Johnny was wrong, it could get worse, Luka was forced to do things, then it turned into a month, a month!!! Johnny was about to blow a casket. When the story was over Johnny swallowed a large lump in his throat. Everything the damn therapist said about holding it back and finding healthy ways to deal with his problems went out the window.
Johnny wiped his tears away from Luka’s eyes, and kissed his forehead, but his movements were stiff. Forced, Johnny stood up and got out of the Jacuzzi, he jumped out, grabbed a towel dried himself off, then left the house. Faith winced when she heard the door slam, ”Oooh dear, I’m so sorry that happened to you, you deserve so much better, but we’re here now…” Faith said moving to Luka and holding his hand. However, Sean saw the look on Luka’s face when Johnny left and sighed lightly, ”Luka, he didn’t leave because of you, I’m surprised he was able to stay through all of it. But I know you want him more than us, so if you want to, go get him. You might be the only thing that stops him from going back to jail…” Zack smiled, ”I understand now what makes you freak out, and your safe with us, I would never let anything happen to you.” Chelsea nodded her head, ”Sweetheart, you have a support group at your fingertips, all you have to do is call.” Then it was Lissa, who wanted to say something special, something great, her eyes looked at Luka and a small smile came to her lips, ”It was a horrible thing that happened, but it is a part of what made you, you, who is a great person. It opened a path that led you to Johnny and us. I couldn’t imagine any other Luka then you.”
Johnny was seven houses down, and every tree that came in sight was punched, every light post that came, was punched. His rage boiling, until he was glaring at the very ground, he wished he could say what he wanted to. ‘I will hunt you down like a hound dog chasing a bunny; you will not be able to hide. You will not be able to get away from me. I will destroy you, and every last trace of your existence, will be gone, but you will feel the pain that you made Luka go through, I will personally make sure that your last breath will be in agony.’ Just the words, made Johnny’s right hand pull back and slam into the tree, bark falling off the tree to reveal it’s bareness, a fight is what he wanted, and he knew where to find it.
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Luka winced when he heard the door slam and bit his lip. Was it his fault he left? though he then heard Sean and had to relax more. he felt Faiths hand in his and smiled looking at her and then all of them. he heard Zack and then Chelsea speak. it made him feel better to know they cared enough about him to help him out. when he heard Lissa he smiled more and nodded, "I don't let it affect me as much.... but sometimes it still bugs me. I like who I am I like who I became because of it." he looked at all of them and then hugged Faith, Chelsea, and Lissa. he then bowed his head to the guys, "thank you for understanding and helping me feel better. I should go find Johnny before he gets hurt or in trouble." he said and stood up grabbing his towel. he dried off and then looked at the others, "if the pizza guy comes and we're not back the money tip and all is by the door" he told them before he headed out to find Johnny.
When he got out side he looked around trying to figure out which way he went, but he noticed the trees and figured which way Johnny went. He then started to run to try and catch up with Johnny calling out his name to see if he would answer. When he didn't he fallowed the punched trees still looking for him. He was growing worried and he bit his lip hoping he hadn't done anything yet. soon he heard the sound of a tree being punched and the bark falling off. He sighed some and ran faster to make sure he caught up with him. his ribs where hurting like hell but at this point he really didn't care. he'd take it easy later and when they were eating and watching a movie he'd put on his brace again. all he wanted right now was to catch up to Johnny. he had to get to him before he started off again. He didn't want him to get in trouble.
When he got close he called out to him, "Johnny wait!!!" he begged and then finally caught up to him panting as he stopped running. He looked at him and bit his lip, "please come back to the house. I don't want to see you get hurt or in trouble again because of me" he said and looked down. he would feel even more guilty that he'd go to jail because johnny was trying to protect him or was upset. he looked at him and took his hand to see the damage he had done to it. when Johnny tried to argue he gave him a look as if saying 'don't even' he then checked over his hand and started to lightly and carefully pull out the small wood pieces in his hand, "I know your upset... hell when my dad hard my story he took a bat to the tree. he felt guilty it was his job that caused it. since they guy was a jealous model. though due to his jealousy he's spending time in jail. or he's now registered and can't go any where near me or kids. he also now can't work in any modeling business." he looked up at Johnny and smiled, "he ruined his life forever just to get back at my dad. he didn't ruin mine. I can still do what ever I want. I can write music for famous singers. I can sing my own once i get over my fear. I can become a doctor or a lawyer. My whole life is a head of me still." he told him as he continued to pick out the wood.
when he was finished he kissed his hand blushing before looking up at him, "You and your friends have done more for me then anyone. mostly you. If it wasn't for you I would have never gone up there to sing. or I would have been raped again by those assholes. you been so nice to me because you care about me." he told him and then kissed him softly, "I care about you just as much. Don't want to see you hurt or in trouble again. I want to protect you like you do me. maybe when I feel better you can show me how to fight and so when your not around I can defend my self if needed. It will be fun" he said and smiled, "please come back with me. everything is fine. I can't forget what happened to me, so I learned from it." he told him and held his hand more, "plus I want to patch up your hand so it doesn't get infected. that and i couldn't get all the wood out so i need my tweezers" he told him and looked at him again, "I love you Johnny to much to see you get hurt" he told him and blushed again.
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Two Days Later
Johnny stood center stage of his last performance, the show would happen the following night, and then him and his friends would all be living this state to go on tour. Johnny stood staring at the empty chairs, the microphone before him waiting for him to say something into it. Johnny had a lot on his mind, the world now thinking he was gay, and of course part of it was true, he was currently seeing Luka, who was not a girl like he had first thought. He went to jail for this boy, and only after knowing him for a few days. Then it followed by being stared at when around him, now learning that he was kidnapped and tortured when he was a child. Johnny looked down at his bandaged hand that he tore up once he heard the news. It was almost impossible for him to get into trouble. Luka was already right there, at this point Johnny didn't know if he liked it or not.
But what he did know, is that he needed to tell Luka that he was going on tour in a day, and that he wouldn't be back for a month. Which was a long time to be away from someone, and Johnny didn't know how Luka was going to take it. He wasn't like the other band members, their wives/girlfriends went with them time to time. Lisa was the only difference she went back home every once in a while, but the wives just stay with them because they love them. That and also they don't really trust the women, which was completely understandable. Johnny instead of saying something, just smacked his head against the microphone. "That sounded beautiful." It was Sean of course, "I know I'm thinking it might be my next single, it shall be called, 'Head Smack'." Sean laughed and moved closer putting his hands in his pockets, "Would there be words or just different tones as you smack your head?"
"Haven't thought that far yet." Johnny looked at him smiling, somehow Sean knew when to come in and it was almost like he could read minds, because he knew exactly what to say, "Don't stress over it, everything works out in a way, whether it's how you think it should be, or a completely different way, you'll be happy. Just do what feels right to you, and you'll be fine." Johnny pondered his words as he watched the man group his jacket that was on the chair on stage, then left. No other words, the man was like a fortune cookie, if you wanted one or not. Pulling out his phone, he called Luka, it went to voice-mail, Luka was in school right now and Johnny just wanted to leave a massage, so they could met up after he got out. "Hey, I'll be at your school once you get out, so don't leave or anything, I have somewhere to take you."
Closing his phone he slide it back in his pocket, then let himself fall backwards onto the stage, staring at the ceiling, would Johnny have been happier if everything could go back to normal? Just a lot of kissing beautiful woman, having pointless sex, drinking with them, having their CD's shoved down his throat? A large part of him is a no, he cares for Luka so much, but another part of him is a yes because even though Luka makes him happy, he still isn't fully comfortable with who he was now. Johnny had never liked guys before, he didn't look at them, he wasn't attracted to them. Woman were beautiful, it could be the fact that Luka looked so much like a girl, but Johnny was always freaked out when Luka would wear a dress. Because he knew it was a lie, and Johnny knew that he was in deep because Luka was wearing more pants because he knew Johnny liked it better. He was changing his style for Johnny, almost changing apart of him for Johnny.
"You got yourself deep now." It was like an echo in the room, because what he heard was, 'yes you did' Johnny chuckled lightly, there was one thing he knew for sure. That if him and Luka didn't work out, Johnny would not date another man. Luka was the only exception, and he still had to go to that press conference, there was a lot of talk and his manager said he had to address the rumors to clear the air and stop the horrible stories from circling around. That conference was to happen right before the show the next day he had so much to do it wasn't even funny, or just plain fun.
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Luka was in English class barely able to pay attention. He was to busy thinking about Johnny and everything that was happened. it had only been maybe a month and or so since he even met Johnny and so much had happened. some good some of it not so good, but the good things were just wonderful. Johnny's band mates and their wives where just amazing people. He was so lucky to be able to have met them and get to know them. the problem was he noticed how when him and Johnny where in public, he still seemed so uncomfortable and tense. when they were alone it was fine, but he wondered if Johnny was still having a hard time with it all. he knew that a lot of people still saw being gay as gross or bad, but a lot of people didn't care.
he wondered how he could help him. was there even a way to help or was this just something Johnny had to do on his own. he sighed some and when the bell rang and it was time for lunch, he wrote down the homework and headed out. He ignored the whispers and the looks, since he was pretty use to that already and headed to the place he normally liked to go for lunch. As he did he checked his phone and when he saw he had a voice mail and listened to it. hearing Johnny he blushed some and then deleted the message. wonder what he had planned for this afternoon. He wondered if he needed anything or what he had now was fine. guess he'd find out after school.
When he got to his spot behind the bleachers on the track, he sighed and sat in the normal spot. so much going threw his head and it was making it hurt. Gwen; his twin sister, walked up and sat down next to him, "hey what's up? why so down?" Luka looked at his sister and sighed some, "I'm worried about Johnny... i mean with dad being a motel and him being a rock star the press and paparazzi have been just eating this up. I'm worried that he won't be able to handle things" Gwen smiled softly at her brother and hugged him, "you worry so much about everyone else but you never worry about your self. Johnny just like everyone who has done something way outside of their comfort zone and something they never thought possible for the first time is just taking it all in. it's new and strange and takes time to rewire your brain. though if he thinks he's gay he's not." this made Luka twitch and Gwen laugh, "I mean he's something else. I think he's something special. He sees people for who they are and not what they are. I think he fell for your personality over your gender. which is special because he saw who you are over what you are and he's willing to try and over come things in himself to be with you. it's like how your willing to do things out of your comfort zone to make him happy. you see him for him and not what he is. maybe you should tell him that. and don't worry so much. he's a big boy he can surely handle himself. it takes time" Luka smiled and kissed his sisters cheek, "thanks" he told her and when she got up and headed off he yawned and went on doing homework.
When school ended he sat on the stone stair well and waited for Johnny to pick him up. the traffic around the school was always fun because the middle school was right next to the high school. he sighed and popped in his headphones and started to work on some of the homework he had. he wanted to get most of it finished so he had less to do that night. He kept listening to music and when one of his favorite songs came on he started to move to the music. soon he was up and dancing along as as he started to sing along,
"Still the night, kill the lights
Feel it under your skin
Time is right, keep it tight
‘Cause it’s pulling you in
Wrap it up you can’t stop
‘Cause it feels like an overdose
Oh, oh
Evacuate the dancefloor
Oh, oh
I’m infected by the sound
Oh, oh
Stop this beat is killing me
Hey Dr. DJ let the music take me underground"
he kept dancing and moving to the beat. Luckily today he wasn't wearing a dress he was wearing a wicked cool outfit that for the most part all of it glowed in the dark. though when he saw Johnny pull up on his bike, he stopped dancing and waved before grabbing his stuff and heading over to him, "hey traffic extra bad today?" he asked as he grabbed the helmet that he used while Johnny was here.
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Johnny had rolled himself off the stage, and then finally pulled himself out of the stadium and then went to his bike. Running his fingers through his hair, he put on his helmet and pulled up the shield up from his eyes. Soon enough he was outside of Luka's school, waiting for him, at that point he had his shield over his eyes hiding who he was, he didn't want a group of people bothering him right now. Upon seeing his outfit Johnny chuckled lightly, Luka was soemthing, he sure was something. "Not to awful, you look like a light at the end of the tunnel don't you?" Johnny smiled but it wasn't seen underneath the helmet.
When Luka got on the bike after putting on the extra helmet, Johnny started and zoomed off. Avoiding the cars and traffic lights, going through the green lights but making sure everything was safe, he would never dream of hurting Luka and therefore he could no longer go crazy driving that he would always do. he continued to drive for about twenty minutes up a swirving road and out of town. Driving fast, he zoomed down the road and then soon enough they were in a different town altogether. He went up and swirved around the mountains until he was at a nice tourist spot. He parked at the dirt path and got off of his bike. "Here we are." Taking off the helmet, he placed it on the handles and started to move to the edge.
it was all gated to stop people from falling, it had happened once before and now they were making sure it wouldn't happen again. Johnny waited until Luka took off the helmet and then he placed his hands into his pockets, "This is the first stop, the second is a surprise." Johnny looked out, he could see the town that they were at and also off in the distance the different mountains that moved up and down. The swirling streets, the man looked over to him and sighed, "Luka there are a list of events that are going to happen and they are all going to happen at once." Johnny turned watching Luka hoping that he handled this well. "The first, there is a press conference tomorrow before the concert that I will be attending, at which of course you will be with me, we have the actually concert.
That following day, I will be on a plane and going on tour for a month, I know a month seems like a long time but it won't be. It'll go by quickly and we will be back together again. But unfortunatly that also means that we only have today and tomorrow morning to really spend with each other." Johnny went to Luka and kissed him softly, then sighed, he had so much on his mind and he didn't know how to bring it up or to make it sound causal so. He wouldn't talk to Luka about it until after the conference, sometimes the best of answers come under pressure.
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Luka chuckled and nodded, "I like bright colors and just wait till tonight let's just say you'll be able to find me in the dark" he said laughing. when he put on the helmet, he got on and then held on tight. when they sped off he watched where they were going and had to raise his eyebrow since they were heading out of town and he wondered what he was up to. as they headed up the mountain, he took in all the sites and looked at everything. the mountain was quite beautiful and he wondered were on the mountain they were going.
when they seemed to arrive and he parked on a dirt path he blinked and looked around. he took off his helmet and then got off the biked and looked at the view, "it's really pretty up here" he moved to where the gate and Johnny was and smiled. when he heard that the next place was a surprise he raised his eyebrow and smiled, "and this wasn't?" he asked chuckling more. he looked at the amazing view and smiled at it all him say there was going to be a lot of things happening at once and he looked at him so he could listen. he heard the thing about the press conference and when he heard he'd be with he got nervous. it was the stage fight thing. a lot of people watching him. oooh that will be hard, but he can do it. he nodded and then smiled about the news of the concert. he knew of that part since he had went with Johnny to a couple of the practices. when he heard about the tour, he frowned some, but smiled again. he sadly knew of that too since he got e-mails about updates on their site and that was one of the updates.
when he felt the kiss, he kissed him back and smiled, "i knew about the tour. I got an e-mail saying about it from your site. it won't be to long and we can write. though any chance you can send me a post card from each place you been?" though an idea was forming min his head and he had to talk to his dad about it. he wrapped his arms around him and kissed him softly, before laying his head on his chest, "I'll miss you. and i think Yuki will too. that dog has grown quite attached to you. then again after your friends all sneaking him parts of their pizza he's pretty fond of them too" he said laughing. he looked into his green eyes and had to smile. his sister sad he worried to him; to a point so did Johnny. he knew that there would be times johnny had to leave for a long time since he couldn't just stay put. it wouldn't do well for his music.
he snuggled into him and then looked up at him, "my sister told me something interesting today. she told me she didn't think you were gay" he said and smiled, "she said she thought you were special and rare. in some way you don't see gender, you see the personality of the person and that's what your attracted to. she said that you saw me over anything else and that's the part your into. it's like how i see you for who you are and not what everyone sees you as or what people think. i fell for the real you. you maybe tough and rugged on the outside, but your actually quite sweet and caring on the inside." he sad and blushed some and chuckled, "so she said your not into guys that i really am an exception." her blushed and ran his hand threw his hair, "but that's her thought." he said and smiled, "you don't have to change who you are completely. you just got to fallow your heart. and i wouldn't want you to be anyone other then you" he said smiling.
he looked out at the beautiful area's around them and had to sigh. this was a really nice place and it was really pretty. he kinda wished he had his camera. he looked at Johnny again and blinked, "so what's next on this adventure? it's kinda fun not knowing where we're going and what your scheming." he said giggling and kissed him again. he moved away some and put his hands in his pockets before looking at the town below, "how did you know of this place? i don't think i ever been here?" he asked wondering and smiled. this was fun and it was nice to be with Johnny just them, no people and no bull s**t. it was fun and relaxing.
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Johnny chuckled at the comment, he had no worries in his mind that he would be able to find Luka in the dark. Johnny couldn't get lost if he wanted too, Luka would hunt him down and smother him with love. Which of course Johnny wouldn't really mind, he loved Luka in one form or another and wouldn't run away from him or at least not let Luka get him back. It's funny to think of getting away from Luka now, he had became such a large part of his life in such a short time. It was only getting more serious by the minute, every second was only getting him deeper into the hole.
Johnny laughed and shook his head, "Oh no, this isn't really the surprise at all. I'm not that simple." Johnny waited silently until Luka had something to say about the matter. When Luka said he knew about the tour because of the e-mail from their site the only thing that crossed his mind was, 'Why does he still have e-mails from that, his dating a member, that's silly' Johnny nodded though and chuckled lightly, "Of course I'm going to send you a postcard, and write you cute letters on them, and everything." Returning the kiss that Luka had given, Johnny watched him lay his head upon Johnny's chest.
"I'll miss you too, well what can I say? I'm a dog so their attracted to me." Johnny chuckled lightly and then laughed at the comment Luka made, "Your dogs a bit of a whore." When Luka said he had heard something interesting from his sister, Johnny raised an eyebrow and waited to hear this. 'Didn't think you were gay' he talked about it with his sister? Was that really needed? Did everyone need to know that Johnny was having trouble with who he was and wanted to be?
'Special and rare, in some way you don't see gender, you see personality...' Johnny didn't know if that was true or not, to be honest Johnny didn't know what compelled him to like Luka. The fact that he had a complex with leaving people in need when he can solve a problem. That he didn't like seeing strong people hurting the weak. Johnny still remained silent as Luka talked though, just letting his thoughts run a muck. 'I fell for the real you' that scared him, Luka being in love with Johnny, what if Johnny hurt Luka? What then, it would look horrible, the cruel Johnny hurting the feelings of a minor cute boy with a heart as big as the world.
The more he thought about it, the more stressed he was getting. 'You maybe tough and rugged on the outside, but your actually quite sweet and caring on the inside.' There goes the image he had made for himself, watching Luka begin to blush, Johnny smiled softly. "That is quite a thought she had going for her. You are a exception." Johnny took Luka's hand and sighed softly, "I don't know who I am Luka, I dont' know if I'm all that special and rare. I don't know what would happen if I was to hurt you. I don't know how I feel about everything, but it will all come down tomorrow and you'll get a answer then. But now I'm still thinking of so much."
That might not be the answer that Luka wanted, but as he mentioned the next surprise Johnny smiled and grabbed the helmet. He returned the kiss and smiled, "You're going to love my next surprise." Johnny ran his fingers through Luka's hair and kissed him more passionately, pulling Luka close to him and lifting him off the ground slightly as he moved his tongue along Luka's bottom lip. "I have my sources, I'm suppose to know where all the cool places are." Johnny chuckled lightly and kissed Luka again.
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Luka heard him and shrugged, his sister did tend to over think some even when she was trying to be helpful. sometimes he just listened and picked the stuff that sounded good in her long winded over thought out helpful advice. he looked at Johnny when he took his hand and listened to him. he smiled at him. he just nodded for now and when he said he was going to love his next surprise he raised his eyebrow. he felt his fingers threw hair and sighed softly. when he kissed him passionately he kissed him back just has passionate and wrapped his arms around his neck. oh this was making his hear race and his head spin. feeling Johnny's lips against his felt so amazing and the way he was kissing him was he kissing him was sending shivers down his spine and making him heat up.
he shivered when johnny ran his tongue along his bottom lip and blushed. he chuckled and smiled, "well your right there. you have to know all the right spots to hang out in" he said and kissed him back. He smiled and raised his eyebrow, "though you have sources? are they the search sites in the internet?" he asked lightly teasing him and giggled lightly, "or did one of the people here tell you about it?" he asked. though he did have to admit. he would have to come again. this was really beautiful and so peaceful. Maybe he'd show his siblings this place they'd like it too. he snuggled into him and closed his eyes just enjoying being with him and no cameras going off or questions being asked.
he looked at him again, touched his cheek and looked into his eyes, "it's hard to figure out who you really are, but just fallow your heart and trust in it. I think my dads advice would be better suited. for a long time me and my two twins were only seen as a set. we were the triplets we were never seen as three different people. so when we finally demanded that we be seen that way we each got asked 'who are you as a person' my siblings would answer, but i couldn't. my dad came and talked to me and when i told him i didn't know who i was he told me, 'who you are isn't clothes, sexuality, or how you look, it's the energy that your heart releases and shows the world. it's how you are when your with the people you love. and it's the things you love the most in life. it's the things that only the people who really try can see. so fallow your heart and you'll be fine." he kissed him and snuggled him.
he looked up at him and smirked, "plus as sweet and soft and cuddly you are. I never seen anyone leave a whole in a tree that far before like you. those Squirrels are living happily in that tree clear of the stupid poodle. if you can do that you can do anything. and as for hurting me. you done more for me then anyone ever had before. you saved me and went to jail doing it. you got me to go on stage and sing for the first time and showed me how much fun it can be. you introduced me to some of the coolest people ever who are fun and wild. around you i smile a lot more. i don't think you hurting me is possible. but i can't wait to see this surprise I'm going to love" he said bouncing some and smiling, "is it close by? or is it a bit of a drive?" he asked wanting to know and smiled more.
 Derres Sinn_89 · Thu Jan 19, 2012 @ 01:31am · 0 Comments |
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