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Smiling when he was ready, Luka walked out of the bathroom and chuckled, "ready when you are. It's not so hard to get to my house. and the butterfly garden isn't hard to find. no worries I can tell you how to get to all of them" he told him. They then headed out once he got his boots on. They got to the Motorcycle and He got onto the back once Johnny got on. He put the helmet on knowing he'd need it. He then held on as they took off. since it was hard to hear on a bike Luka pointed which way to go when he needed to. Johnny seemed to have figured it out pretty easy. He could see his home coming up and Luka pointed to the house. See it wasn't to hard to get to his place. more annoying then anything. When they pulled up he noticed the only car in the drive way was his. He had worked hard to get that piece of junk, but it got him to point A to point B.
He got off the bike and then took off the helmet. Luka smiled and chuckled, "seems everyone is out" he said. he knew his twin brother had a date today and his twin sister had to work. his parents must be at work as well. He smiled and pulled out his key from his bag and looked at Johnny, "you coming?" he asked smiling. When johnny fallowed he went to the door and unlocked it before turning off the alarm so it wouldn't go off. With that done he walked in farther and smiled, "this is home. My room is up stairs." soon barking could be heard and a shiba inu came running. The small dog jumped on Luka and said boy petted him, "Hey Yuki how is my good boy?" The dog wagged his tail enjoying the petting.
Luka looked at Johnny, "this is Yuki, my dog. I had him for three years now" he said smiling. He then motioned Yuki to get down and when he did he went to Johnny and smelled him before he sat and behaved. Luka chuckled and smiled, "shall we head to my room? do you wanna drink first? we have mountain dew, ginger ale, coke, apple and orange juice, fruit punch, milk, and water of all flavors" he said chuckling. His parents always made sure they had enough drinks for 4 kids and themselves and guests. he headed to the kitchen to get him self a bottle of strawberry water and then looked at Johnny to see what he wanted.
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Johnny nodded, they had a lot of choices, he slid his right hand fingers though his hair while the left one slid into his pocket. ”Well, you just have a lot here don’t you?” He said chuckling lightly as he moved into the kitchen, but something caught his eye. Backing up he saw the picture of the family and Johnny focused on the dad. That would explain why Luka looked so familiar at a while of staring at him, ”You’re dad, Blaise Valentine, his a model.” Johnny said before walking back into the kitchen, ”I know him, we did a shoot together.” Johnny said, chuckling then his face went weird for a minute sense that was the man that he was checking out the entire time. Johnny coughed at his situation and sighed, yep he was cursed. God hated him.
”I’ll have a water, normal water…” He said, laughing a bit that he had to explain that he didn’t want a flavor, he leaned against the counter and looked at the ground. It figures that the man would be his father, ”so did you ever do a shoot with your father? You would make a very good model.” It slipped out, Johnny cursed at himself, hating the fact that he just did that, gave him a compliment and shaking his head lightly he just smiled, ”Thank you.” Johnny said as he was handed the water, he waited patiently for Luka to be done and lead him up to his room.
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Luka smiled and nodded, "yeah that's my dad. Yeah I know you did. He mentioned it to us. He told us that if being a pop star got boring for you that you'd be good in modeling" he said chuckling. He sipped hips water and then smiled, "normal water it is" he said handing him a bottle of water laughing. He then heard his compliment and smiled, "i was thinking of it a couple of times. But I'm to different to be a model" he said shrugging, "but I have done a couple of shoots with my dad. All of us have. He's been a model since he was 17. he loves it. But when we were all little he did a shoot with all of us for an article on fatherhood. Then each one of us did one with him separate" he explained. He then quickly fed Yuki and then looked at Johnny, "shall we head up?" When he nodded he lead him to the stairs and headed to his room.
When they got to his room which was the last door on the right, Luka looked at Johnny, "sorry if things are out of place. I didn't have time to put things away" With that said he opened his door and walked in. his room was a nice shade of purple with band posters ranging from Johnny's band to three days grace and so many others. were their wasn't posters there was glow in the dark stars all around. The room had a full size bed and a couple of dressers as well as a computer deck and two nightstands. it had drums near the window in the corner and around the computer was what looked like a mini recording station. books and music paper was sprawled on the bed and so was a guitar and a bass was on the bed. He blushed some and looked at Johnny, "told you it was a mess. if you want you can either sit on the bed or in my little bowl chair next to the nightstand. or the computer chair." he told him before he tried to organize things.
He then remembered they came to get him clean clothes and he stopped and started to look threw his clothes. He never wore half of it but his brother and sisters helped his parents get him normal clothes figuring one day he'd wear it. And today was that day. He figured he'd wear something normal for Johnny since the dress thing confused him once already. Finding something he liked, he grabbed a few things what would look good with it and then looked at Johnny smiling, "I'll be right back" he then headed to the bathroom to change. He slipped into the outfit he picked out and then put on what he picked for it. With that done he found his hair colorful hair extensions and put some in that went with the outfit. With that done he put his hair in the normal style;pony tail and bangs messy, and then smiled. All set just needed his shoes.
Luka walked back into his room and showed johnny, "is this ok to go out in?" he asked. He then went into his closet and got a pair of shoes to match. He then sat on the bed and got them on after getting socks on. With that done he stood up and grabbed his bag he always brought with him and put a couple of things in it. he then put it on, "ready when you are" Yuki finished eating walked into his room and jumped on his bed and flopped down next to johnny. he barked and wagged his tail hopping for a pet before they left him alone again. When he was petted he wagged his tail and then yawned before laying his head down and taking a nap. Luka chuckled, "meet my guard dog" he said sarcastic showing that Yuki was far from a guard dog and more of a people person. He then smiled, "so shall we head out. the candy store is down town it's about 20 minute drive" he said letting him know.
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Johnny held back the need to make a face when Luka said that their father mentioned him, it only made matter worse, however he laughed at hearing that, ”I remember him suggesting it being my full time job.” Then as he started to talk about wanting to model Johnny shrugged lightly, that would make sense he was a boy by wasn’t into boy clothing. It could make things complicated; he talked about modeling with his father though which was always a good thing. Johnny could see him modeling, and chuckled lightly at the thought, before he was asked if they should head up. Nodding his head, Johnny moved with Luka up the stairs and to his room.
He nodded once more when he addressed that his room was messy, but once the door was open it was clear that he was overreacting. The only thing messy about his room was the cluster of posters that covered his purple walls. One of them being his face on their along with his band members, he also noticed the stars and it caused him to smile at it, he remembered having stars all around his room. Now it seems he was never there enough to enjoy them. The room itself had a lot of instruments and it was very nice, being in his room all day no doubt it was just covered in music from the morning he woke up to night when he fell asleep. ”It wasn’t a mess at all, you fail, and I will take the bed.” Johnny said, moving away from the door and sitting on the bed, his legs hanging off the bed, as his hands went to his lap.
Johnny watched as he started to look around in his clothes, some of them looked normal, Johnny was hoping that he would wear something normal. He disappeared and Johnny sat there letting out a yawn as he looked at his knuckles. Johnny ran his other fingers along them, remembering it and sighed, the feeling was boiling in his gut again and he had to start looking at the posters to not want to punch something else. Johnny watched as he came out and showed what he was wearing, ’He looks cute…’ Johnny winced once he said he looked good. Johnny balled up his fist and sighed lightly holding it back, ”You look fine.” He refused to tell him he looked great, or handsome, or cute. Fine seemed like the best word choice, and hopefully he wouldn’t take it the wrong way.
”Yes it is fine.” He said again, looking away, before returning his gaze back to Luka, when he put on some shoes with socks Johnny smiled. Then he grabbed a bag putting it on his back, Johnny blinked and nodded, watching as Yuki came in jumping onto the bed and lying next to him. He moved his figners to Yuki rubbing him behind the ears and smiling, ”Yes you’re a pretty puppy.” Johnny said smiling then watched him fall asleep. ”Nice guard dog.” Johnny said before getting up and nodding his head, ”Alright, um, be careful going outside, there are paparazzi’s waiting for us.” Johnny said, standing up and sliding his hands in his pockets, ”I saw them while we were on our way in.”
Johnny said passing him and going down the stairs waiting for him by the front of the door, putting his fingers on the door knob waiting for him, Johnny would go first so Luka didn’t get tackled by them.
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Luka heard paparazzi and sighed. great once they found out who he was they'd never leave him alone or his siblings. oh well price you have to pay having a famous dad and a famous friend. He smiled and nodded, "I'll be careful" he then fallowed Johnny down the stairs and when he got ready to head out he smiled and nodded. When he walked out he fallowed after setting the alarm and locking the door. He put on his sunglasses thanks to the flashes and fallowed Johnny to the bike. So many flashing and questions. when one person grabbed him he stepped on the guys foot and caught up with Johnny. he twitched and sighed, "you know if cartoons were real I'd use a freeze gun to get rid of them" he said chuckling
once on the bite and heading off Luka sighed and thought, 'free for now' he then smiled and showed Johnny how to get to the candy store. He looked at everything and when they arrived He slipped off the bike and put the helmet on the back, "I haven't been here for years." he said chuckling. They had every candy under the sun. It was awesome. they even had the old kind from back in the day. It was a good place to get things for a party and for just plan fun. He looked at Johnny smiling and then headed to the door. Once Johnny caught up he walked in and he smiled brightly. It was just as he remembered it. He sighed and looked around at all the candy and remembered how he felt his first time in here. Oh all this was amazing and wonderful. He should pick up a few things for his cousins and some for him self. He pulled out his wallet to make sure he had anything even in it. He smiled and nodded before putting it back.
Luka looked back at Johnny and chuckled, "this brings back memories. It's like being a kid again" he said smiling, "so what should we get. so much to choose from" he said and hummed some as they walked around. He was really enjoying him self. He put his hands in his back pockets and looked at everything. It smelled so sweet and it had that warm welcome feeling. He moved his head to the music in his head coming up with a new song. He had a few written and one was coming to him. knowing him he'd be writing it down soon. He soon spotted one of his favorites and laughed, "oh they have them here. Zots" he pulled out a string of hard candies and chuckled, "they have power in the middle that forms up when you reach it. they are soo cool" he said chuckling more. He forgot all about the stupid cameras and was starting to enjoy him self again.
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Johnny only sighed, he couldn’t have a normal day anymore, not unless he wore sunglasses and a beany the whole entire time, but that was starting to sound like a good idea. Except they knew what he was wearing now. ”You better be careful.” He said, Johnny didn’t feel like punching the lights out on one of them, it would be a bad story about him, but if he had to for Luka, he would, as the door was opened and Johnny moved through the crowd, gently breaking them apart as he grabbed Luka’s arm to keep him close. Once he stopped, it caused Johnny to look back, a flash in his eyes, as he put on his sunglasses and heard what Luka said, ”Cartoons normally break out of freeze guns.” Johnny said shaking his head lightly.
Johnny zoomed off, following the directions now to the candy store, which he parked right next to the curb in a perfect spot for a motorcycle. Cars missed all the good spaces, Johnny waited until Luka got off, before he too got off and slid his hands in his pockets with his keys. Turning to see the paparazzi had followed them, of course it wasn’t a surprise, it was the people following them had worried him. Ducking into the store he shut the door and sighed shaking his head, ”I’ve never been here.” Johnny said, looking around, he moved to the laffy taffy, he licked his lips and put some in a bag, being completely normal about it, though he felt a little silly actually getting something, but he didn’t really care, he moved then to see that they had sour gummy worms, he got some of that too biting his lip as the flashing appeared outside the window. At least they had the respect not to go into the store and completely ruin everything.
The little kids in the store watched them in awe, wondering what was going on, but the adults knew, and he nodded to them with a greeting, some of which smiled, and others glared. Obviously they weren’t too happy about having to fight their way out of the store. Johnny however, went back to looking for candy, he got some jaw breakers and that was when Luka spoke to him. He turned his body, holding three bags and chuckled a little, ”Well…I feel like a kid.” Johnny said rubbing the back of his head and chuckling lightly, then he looked at his bag and coughed, ”Well… I got Laffy Taffy… lots of Laffy Taffy, and sour gummy worms…jaw breakers…eh I got a lot. What do you want to add to our collection?” He asked moving towards him and smiling.
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Luka heard Johnny and giggled, "mmm I have a few things in mind" he said smiling. He put a good amount of Zots in a bag of the favors he liked and hummed. He didn't notice the camera's outside so that was a good thing. He noticed a kid trying to get some candy from the higher shelves and smiled and went to her, "do you need help?" when she nodded he nodded, "which kind do you want?" she pointed and he got her a bit till she said stop and then handed her the bag, "here you go" the little girl smiled and thanked him before skipping off. He chuckled and then looked at Johnny. He smiled at him and then went to the lollipops. He grabbed a few of the different kinds in the favors he liked. With that done he went to the Sour gummie worms Johnny was just add and got him some. He then looked at him and bounced, "all set!" he laughed and bounced a little on his feet.
When Johnny said he was he glided threw the rows and rows of candy. When they got to the front where the register was Luka put his bags on the counter and when johnny did the same he blinked. when johnny said he was paying he blushed and smiled, "thank you. but you know you done so much for me already. Last thing i need is to get a big head for being spoiled to much" he said giggling. When Johnny didn't let him argue he pouted playfully and stuck his tongue out, "Oh fine but I'm at least paying for gas and that's not an argument" he said smirking. yay! he won and he knew it. this caused him to giggle and rock on his feet as the guy totaled it up and then johnny paying. He grabbed the bags that were his and put them in his bag to hold into them.
When that was done, Luka smiled more and giggled, "thank you. I'm really having fun. Should we go to build a bear next? It's only 10 minutes way. it's closer then the garden. plus the garden is a nice place to relax" he said nodding. He hoped Johnny was having fun as well. He hopped he liked the garden. it was a beautiful place with flowers and plants all over and a fountain and tons of butterflies of all kinds. it was a magical place. His grandfather told him stories of butterflies and he loved it. When Johnny nodded he smiled more and leaded to the door. that was when he looked at the camera's and sighed. dicks.. oh well. He put his shades and on when johnny went first he fallowed making sure not to get touched again. onto the bike they went and got on quickly soon it was onto build a bear. He again showed him the way and moved his head to the music he heard in his head. once at the garden he would write all this down.
Once they got to the building, Luka got off and looked around. Well it seemed they lost them for a little bit. but for how long? Shrugging he looked at Johnny and smirked, "so are you going to make a furry friend too?" he asked with a giggle. He so felt like a little kid. but sometimes you needed to be a kid again. it allowed your mind to grow and see things from a simpler light. It was nice to just look at things threw a child light. It also reminded you of the things were wonderful and good. With this in mind he took Johnny's hand and giggled again, "come on. I always wanted to do this. Taken my little cousins here always made me wanna make one" he said blushing. Hey it could have been worse. he could have asked to go to Chucky cheese. but that was pushing it. plus he hated that place with a passion. it was annoying to know end.
When they got in, Luka smiled and pointed to the bears, "you pick the bear you want and then you stuff it. You can also add a sound to it but you do that before it's stuffed. once it's stuffed you dress it up in an outfit. you then name it and your done" he said chuckling. He lead him over to the bears and looked at him, "what are you going to make?" he picked up the unstuffed Arctic Polar Bear and then smiled, "I think I'll make this cutie." he then bounced some, "your turn" he said as he waited for him to pick his bear. Once he did he made his way to get his stuffed. Once your at the stuffing machine you put a small heart in. He went to where the sounds were and looked at Johnny, "I wanna add a sound. a personalized one." he then thought and smiled, "will you say something on the record your own sound? for mine?" he asked holding the little thing to him so he could. he looked cute hoping he would.
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Johnny watched him as he went and got the bags that he wanted; Johnny had moved with him to the counter and insisted that he buy. Which he won, however, the man refused to just go with it, Johnny felt himself twitch as he was about to yell at him, but then finally agreed if he gets to give him money for gas. Johnny had let out a sigh, nodding his head, as he began to giggle and rock on his feet obviously proud of what he accomplished. When they reached the door and Luka actually notice the people, Johnny led the way, pulling out his keys before they got there so their getaway was once again, quick and clean. When they got to the building he looked at the big sign with the bear next to it, ”Uh..sure.” He said, then Luka took Johnny’s hand, it was as if the world stopped, and all there was, was Luka holding his hand, the feeling that it caused Johnny, the sudden jump of his heart, the dip that came from his stomach, it was so strange, he had felt it once before but he never imagined he would have felt it with Johnny. It only caused him to resist the urge to pull his hand away quickly, and look at Luka with disgust.
Instead, Johnny followed him, moving with him, not fully there yet but watching how excited he was, ”W-why didn’t you ever make one with them?” Johnny had asked, as they got into the place, with shelves of animals waiting for them to choose, he looked at them. He had never made a bear before, and chuckled lightly at the thought of making one. But that was when he realized he was still holding Luka’s hand; he didn’t want to hurt his feeling, so he took his hand away as if he was looking at a bear that caught his interest. Instead of the real reason which was he didn’t want to feel that feeling with a guy any longer. Looking at the bears he picked the winter one, his hands holding the thing and tilting his head, he poked its nose and smiled, this would be good. Green eyes slid to Luka as he talked about what they did, he nodded his head lightly and then as he picked his he pointed to the bear he had, ”I will have this one.” Johnny said with a smile, as they moved towards the stuffer, he looked at him, ”Buy the way, I’m paying for both.” Johnny said chuckling, and then was taken back when Luka asked for him to do a message for him.
Johnny nodded his head softly, ”O-Okay…” He took the little recorder and moved away from Luka not wanting him to know what he was going to say. It was hard…he wanted something that when he always heard it he would smile. Johnny didn’t know why it was so important but it really was, Johnny looked as if he was in pain, and with a sigh he turned on the recorded thing and once he was done. Johnny turned around, looking at him and walking back to him still holding the recorder in a tight fist. Johnny was afraid to give it to him, because now everything he said was true, and it frightened him how true it was. It even scared him more that it would always be there for Luka to hear, he slowly dropped it in his hand, ”You cannot listen to it until your bear is put together and paid for, that is my one condition.” Johnny walked pass him, grabbing the red little heart as he began to stuff him, then he stopped and it inside his bear, right in the middle and continued to fill him all the way up.
”Oh…my…god…” Johnny froze, stopping in his tracks, he has heard that tone of voice for a very long time, and as he moved so the next person could fill theirs up, Johnny turned. A girl with large brown eyes staring at him, with brown hair jumped on him, ”I can’t believe you’re here! I was just taking my little brother, thinking it was a total drag and you’re here! You’re actually here!” Johnny felt a headache coming on, her voice was not only a squeal from how excited she was, but she was talking really fast. Johnny pushed her away softly, ”Hello…miss… I would love to talk, but my undivided attention belongs to that boy over there, and it would be rude if I do not give him what he deserves. So please, it would help a lot if you just…went on with what you were doing.” With that he turned around and shuffled away. But of course she took out her phone and started to take pictures. Johnny felt his eye twitch a little as he found a jacket and put it on the bear. Then he dug through the pants and pulled some black skinny’s up.
Johnny moved and grabbed shoes, finding a cute hat and smiled, getting a penguin hat and putting it on its head, Johnny was rushing, the woman was still following him, and Johnny also noticed the paparazzi’s waiting outside. He grabbed an ipod, and sunglasses, turning around he went back to Luka and wrapped his arm around him, ”Like I said, this is Luka, and I’m currently giving him everything I got, so you’re being very rude, would you want me to ignore you if you were him?” That caused the woman to leave and Johnny let out a sigh. ”So what did you get.”
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Luka hard heard his question and shrugged, "It was all about my cousins. I didn't think I should ruin their fun. So I figured one day I'd go and make one. here we are" he said and then when johnny said he was paying he sighed and just nodded. he wasn't going to argue since He was having fun. When Johnny agreed to record one he smiled and bounced, "thank you!" he then watched him walk away and blinked some. he got his little heart and then waited for the sound so it could go into the paw. When johnny put it in his hand he heard his condition and nodded, "I promise" he then went to the other stuffer while johnny went to his. He put his heart in and let the lady put the sound piece after getting to to work with out pressing it. she then continued to stuff it till it was how he liked it.
When his bear was done he noticed Johnny dealing with a girl. he blinked some and wondered if he was ok. He figured he'd let him handle it and if things didn't get better he'd step in and help. He went around looking at clothes and found a teal and black shirt with a gray one underneath. he slipped it on and then found a basic pair of jeans and cute little converse. when that was done he found a mic and giggled. he put it on the paw not with the sound thing in it and then found some glasses. Once he was done he looked at it and snuggled it. He was trying to make a Johnny bear. So he could remember this day. Oh this had to be the best day ever. He was having so much fun. He couldn't think this would be happening. He got to meet one of his favorite bands. And got to hang out with a nice guy who he now thought of as a friend. He hoped johnny thought of him as a friend as well. He rocked on his feet, would they be like real friends? it would be so cool if they were. Johnny was such a cool guy. he was nice and strong. he was real and not like what you'd think a star would be like.
Soon his thoughts were interrupted when he felt Johnny wrap an arm around him and said what he did to the girl. He smiled at him and when she felt he showed Johnny his teddy, "a mini you! or i tried to.. I thought it would be cute so I can remember this day" he said chuckling. He didn't do it to look creepy. it was just his way of remembering a great day. If he had a small Johnny then it reminded him of the day he shared with him. He hummed and looked at Johnny's, "your is cute. The penguin hat is the perfect tough." he said smiling. He then lead him to the computers were they made their birth certificate for the bears. once that was done he lead johnny to the front. He stood back and let him pay for it all since he said he was. Once both bears were paid for he Put his gently in his bag and then stuck it's head out giggling as he did. he wanted to know what the saying was but he didn't want to listen to it with everyone around. he'd wait to till they got to the calm butterfly garden. there they would be alone since you had to pay to enter it and it was huge.
He fallowed Johnny out quickly and again they made an escape. He showed johnny how to get to the gardens and once there he sighed and looked at Johnny, "I know for a fact this place will be camera free. they don't allow that crap in here unless you have a school badge not a press badge" he said chuckling. He lead him to the gate and after again johnny paid he lead him threw and to the giant green house that housed the butterflies and the flowers. Once there he walked in and when johnny joined him he sighed, "piece" he said. he found a nice bench for them and sat. He then looked around at all the butterflies flying around. A giant smile showed on his face. He hummed some and when one landed on his hand he watched it before looking at johnny. he took his hand and let the butterfly walk from his to johnny, "what do you think?" he asked, looking at him.
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Johnny, hadn’t said anything when Luka explained why he didn’t make a bear the last time, it was understandable why he didn’t. But after everything, when he called his cute, he looked at it and smiled, ”Thank you.” then he had the time to look at Luka’s bear he chuckled at it and smiled, ”I like your bear as well, however, I’m sure you could have found something much better than a Johnny Bear.” He said rubbing the back of his head, before they moved to name it, when they got the name and it’s birth and Johnny paid they had to face the press again. He let out another sigh, going through the same thing, expect this time he had a bear, he put the bear in a little pocket his bike had as he hoped on and zoomed off once again. The traffic to get there was easy, it was now around three, and it was a perfect time of day to go to the gardens for the sun would be setting soon.
Once he was off, he looked at Luka and nodded his head, ”That’s a relief.” Johnny grabbed his bear, and then paid for them, walking into the garden he looked around and smiled, it was really beautiful. Johnny looked at Luka as he lead him down a path and to a bench, which they sat down at, Johnny looked at all the flowers and the butterflies of all different colors flying around. Soon enough there was a butterfly on Luka, and Johnny’s hand was taking once again, he looked as the little creature walked onto his hand, his green eyes looking at Luka as he frowned mentally. Johnny looked on to this boy, he was connected to nature, and had such a kind heart, Johnny couldn’t help but look at him, Luka had such beautiful eyes, and hair, he wanted to run his fingers through his hair so much, it was impossibly hard to not kiss him softly like he would if he had been a girl acting the way he did. But that wasn’t the case, Luka wasn’t a girl, he was a boy. Johnny looked back on what they did, what Luka was, he could sing and dance around completely free, get scared like a child and hide underneath the covers. Get him breakfast even when he was the one supposed to be treated. Wanting to buy things, and pay for gas.
Johnny sighed, it was obvious that he felt something for the boy, his heart was jumping even now as the mere feeling of his hands close to his. His green eyes looked at Luka, turning soft as he decided whether or not he was going to kiss him. But he managed to snap out of it, his hand jerking away, the butterfly flying away, he watched it leave, before his gaze settled back, ”The place is amazing, it really is I would have never even found this place if it hadn’t been for you.” Johnny said as he looked down to the bears, ”Mine is called, Mr. Flake. And um…you can listen to it now…if you want.” Johnny was embarrassed, it didn’t show on his face, but he was regretting ever doing that stupid recording, and he was sure he would hate it even more once he actually heard it. He had recorded it as a song, a mini one expect he changed a bit and had a lot more feeling to it and a lot more truth.
”Luka Valentine,
I’m just falling for you,
One by one,
You’ve become the light of my world,
Don’t leave me alone tonight,
Give me your hand,
Let me take you away,
Help me heal this broken heart of mine,
You are the sun of my day,
I hope you will stay.”
Johnny could already hear it playing in his head; he looked away, hoping that Luka wouldn’t get the underlying of the message. The fact that Luka leaving Johnny scared him, the fact that he was making his day so much better, Luka really was the sun, just his smile in this peaceful place was making everything brighter. The fact that when he held his hand, his whole body reacted in only a good way, and the fact that Johnny didn’t have a whole heart like the rest of his members…apart of it was missing. Johnny couldn’t stand to look at it, half of him wanting to chuck the thing into the tree and hope it never fell out again. But instead he just looked at the ground, staring as he noticed a butterfly stopping on his shoulder, great a butterfly wanted to watch his doom as well. Johnny turned looking at Luka, he would look him in the eye, he could do this, but as the song began to play from the bear, Johnny had already moved his fingers to Luka’s chin. Johnny brought his lips to his, the mini song played in the background as Johnny moved Luka closer to him, pulling his body close as if he could protect him from the world, ”Damn you…damn you for doing this to me.”
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Luka watched and smiled. He looked at him and nodded, "I love this place. I'd live here if it wasn't for the fact it doesn't have indoor plumbing." he said giggling. He then watched him jerk his hand away and watched as the butterfly flew off. he looked at him again and giggled again when he heard the bears name. he then looked at the bear as well and bowed, "well pleasure to meet you Mr. Flake" he then laughed and held his bear close. He had taken it out of his bag once they had sat down. He heard he could listen to the recording and he smiled more, "oh right. I almost forgot. with everything around." he laughed nervously and looked at his bear. he knew what paw it was. He had put the mic on the opposite one so he knew. He ran his hand over the bears head and thought some.
Being with Johnny made him feel so different. He felt safe. He felt as if he could do anything. His words last night had been ringing threw his head and it helped him come up with the song he has been writing in his head all day. He gave him confidence. He made him feel as if he wasn't dirty. Johnny been with him all day and not once had he realized he was broken. For the first time since that day Luka felt as he did alone time ago it seemed. He felt he could do anything. He could be anything. He wasn't scared of everyone watching him. If he was alone he would have been scared. He would have been nervous. Johnny showed him you can be strong. You don't have to live in fear. He was his safe point. The spot in his maze of fears and thoughts were he could go to feel normal. He didn't want this to end. He didn't want to loose that. But being a pop star you travel. Meaning after this Johnny would be gone, and he'd feel the same as he did everyday.
Snapping out of his thoughts, Luka pushed the bears paw and heard the song. he wanted to cry. but he held back. though as the song had played Johnny's fingers touched his chin making him look at the older man. He then blushed bright red as he felt the others lips on his. his heart stopped and his breath hitched. it was as if everything stopped. time and everything. He pressed his lips against his and then when the broke he felt Johnny pull him closer. He felt the feeling he felt last night. the safe feeling. With out thinking, he laid his head on his shoulder and closed his eyes. Though hearing Johnny he blinked and looked at him. He looked confused and bit his lip, "what do you mean? W-w-what did I do?"
His mind began to spin and his heart raced. What did he do? What was he taken about? doing what to him? What was his thinking? So many questions and he grew nervous. His fears returned and he started to fiddle with his shirt some. his teeth with to his lower lip and he began to chew on it. What if johnny really didn't like him and he was just pretending. What if that what he meant. he was taking it hard for him to pretend? But that didn't sound right. Johnny wasn't that mean. A little rough around the edges but he wasn't that bad. So what did he mean? He gulped some and wiggled some, "Did I do something bad? I don't understand.." he asked him and waited for Johnny to explain. what if it was bad? what if it was good? guess he'd find out.
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Johnny looked at him, as he asked what he meant and what he did, he was blushing, and looked confused biting his lip, the normal nervous things he did. Johnny wondered how he would explain it to him, his eyes were soft as he stared to the ground so confused. But as he gulped and moved uncomfortably in his arms he tilted his head, ”You didn’t do anything wrong Luka.” Johnny said, his green eyes looking back at him and rubbing the back of his head, ”look before you came along, I was straight, and believed I was straight, and pushed away any chance of me not being straight. But the moment you come in, I felt drawn to you, that was why I was so mad, because I thought you were a curse that I now had to deal with. That the heavens knew and wanted to torture me for it, But as you…you…”
Johnny let out a sigh, looking at him, ”I started to fall for you, noticing the things you do when you’re nervous, how you act when you’re happy. How much of a caring and kind person you are, the way you act, I have fallen for it, and it scares me, and enrages me. I like you Luka Valentine, but…I couldn’t be with you, I…I couldn’t be with you and be alright with it. I’m sorry, I didn’t want to cause you pain, I couldn’t help but kiss you, and I cannot leave you alone…you’re going to have my number, and whenever you need anything call me. Also what I said on the recording was true, and you can always listen to it. I just can’t be with you…” Johnny had a pained expression on his face, his hands in fist, he couldn’t believe he was hurting him like this, ”Can you…please hold on…”
Johnny moved away, going somewhere alone, pass all the beautiful butterflies, to a place where he was surrounded by flowers, he gripped his hands in fist, letting all the anger out that way, till it cut his palms and he let out a sigh. That would cause him to be alright for a little while, he moved back and sat down, ”Would you forgive me?”
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Luka listened to him still a bit confused. If he didn't do anything wrong Then why did he that? He continued to listen and bit his lip. So he was mad when he saw him. He thought he was bad? that he was sent to ruin his life. but why? What changed his thoughts? He fiddled with his shirt and looked down biting his lip more. His heart raced and he didn't like how this talk was going. He looked at him threw his bangs and then went to rubbing his arm. Why was he telling him this? What was going on? he knew how he was starting to feel but what did this have to do with them becoming friends? or he hoped friends. now he didn't know.
As johnny continued, Luka looked at him. He fallen for him? could that be true? He had to blush at this. he didn't think anyone would fall for him. though as he continued he felt pain. he had fallen with him but he couldn't be with him? That didn't make since. why did this scare and enrage him? Was the thought being with him that much of a bother? or was it being with a boy in general. either way he didn't like how this went. He started to zone out. he felt like crying or running or both. He just nodded about his number. and then rubbed his arm again. he knew this was all to good to be true. He should have backed out. He nodded again as Johnny asked him to hold on. His head as spinning and he closed his eyes to calm his feeling. not here. not here. not now.
When Johnny returned he looked at him and nodded, "y-y-yeah... no... big. Friends right?" he faked a smile but his chest and heart hurt. He pulled out a piece of paper and wrote his number on it and handed it to johnny, "Just call my cell and I'll save your number. I don't want you to right it down... i might lose it... and it end up in the wrong hands." he told him. He kept rubbing his arm and looked down. He couldn't handle this. this feeling. he felt as if everything crashed around him. that his heart was being ripped out. He put his bear in his bag and stood up, "It's g-g-getting late... I need to h-h-head home." he smiled again and bowed, "thanks for the fun day. I'll never forget it... Till next time" With that he hurried out of the green house and out of the gates. He put his sunglasses since the press had been waiting for them; well Johnny. He pushed passed and then took off running to the bus stop. he finally couldn't hold his tears back and as he ran he cried. The bus came quick and he paid and then sat in the back curling up and waiting for his stop that took him home.
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Johnny hated seeing Luka this way, it was actually hurting him, he hated to see this, the way that Luka was stuttering, the way he handed over his number, still trying to protect Johnny from crazy people. If only Luka knew how dangerous he really was. There were a few things in his ‘life’ that weren’t in the magazines or interviews. A part of Johnny everyone was better off not knowing about. The reason his anger was so little, why he got physical. But all Johnny could do was watch as Luka stood up and walked away from him. Johnny stayed there for a little bit. Taking out his phone and putting Luka’s number in it. Before he tore up the paper and threw it away. Johnny looked at the bear and then began to walk away from the bench, not paying attention to the butterflies that wrapped around his head; if they could speak they would no doubt be calling him a fool. But Johnny believed he was a fool, and yet he could not go up to Luka and tell him that he would be with him. No matter how much he liked Luka he could not bring himself to do it.
He got out of the garden, the camera’s swarming around him as he walked towards his bike, he didn’t even notice them, it was like the only thing he could see was what had just happened, and be lost in his thoughts. Putting the bear in the holder, he got on, putting on the helmet and zooming off. He moved back to the hotel, and once there, it only made him keep thinking of Luka, made him wonder more and more if he had done the right thing. Johnny didn’t even know what he wanted right now, Luka would be better without him in his life, Luka would be able to have a normal relationship, not one with a man who had a play of being a star and traveling the world, then going into the marines once he thought he had enough. Luka didn’t need that, not to mention how much crap Johnny would get…maybe being in the military if he was guy would be a bad idea. Johnny sighed, and found himself trying to look for plan C, but then laughed at himself bitterly, realizing that he could go into the Marines, because he wasn’t going to be with Luka.
Johnny packed up everything, he was leaving soon, he was leaving for two weeks, going on a small tour for signing, and then he would be back in this town, it didn’t take long for him to pack. Grabbing everything as he moved out of the room, ”Was it to your liking Mr. Dashwod?” Johnny turned to the manager, who was also going to his band mates, ”Yes it was fine, however…there’s a bent or hole in your balcony wall…I’m sorry that was my fault and I’ll pay fo-“ The man raised his hand shaking his head, ’Please sir, it’s fine, we can afford it, and I’m sorry for whatever had happened, we will have this room ready for you in two weeks once more.” Johnny nodded, moving down and putting his stuff in the van, the guys grinned, ”So Johnny, we’ll see you at the first signing?” No body rode together when they got a chance to ride in their own vehicles, Neil had a hummer, Sean had a Camaro, and Zack with his viper. Johnny nodded waving good-bye before getting on his bike, putting on his helmet and riding away from Luka.
 Derres Sinn_89 · Sun Oct 30, 2011 @ 10:27pm · 0 Comments |
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