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Is what I have but it's not my lucky poker chip that I carry around with my USB drive that whole few thing that's important to me. It's too important but thinking about it this USB drive is broken and can't be used anymore even the files within it dies I feel bad but it doesn't matter anymore. Even when you are reading this I might as well ask but do you carry such items for the same reason as me? Not that it's lucky but it has something important like a memory you can't let go such as a photo.
I knew some people that wholes photos in their wallet and purse but it does makes me think as human why do we keep these items. It's funny when you think about it but I can really think why? I still have it in a box but I do carry this blue poker chip everywhere I go hoping I get lucky but so far I just keep finding myself in a bad moment. As I think about it I try to forget most of this memory I keep holding that keeps twisting in these dreams of mine.
I don't know about you but it's the irony that hurts when you put though on it. I remember someone was asking about my childhood but I don't think I want to remember it but it's not bad just embarrassing. . . so I been told. I know we all have that moment but I don't think it's nice to know about it.

You know what's funny? I saw this movie called "dont be afraid of the dark" but watching the first part I just figure out the plot even middle nor close to the end it explains what are those creatures. Damn fairies but it seem I can't find the folktale about them but I find it funny on how easy the movie plot was but person I was watching split in two groups-- yet the other group was screaming as it scared him/her and I was just laughing.
I just notice how some folktales, legendary creature, supernatural, cryptids ect you watch and know it even trying to type this is pretty hard for me to explain how much I just watched to laugh. I thought the movie was cute like some other movies that do the same as this-- plot details. One I could say would be but it would be duh to say really. Are you still reading this? I'm just making sure even I don't think I should keep writing in this late of night and these few days of confusion and nightmare. I really do believe I'm just lost in this would then again when aren't we?

Do you know what I'm talking about? I'm sorry but I believe you think I'm crazy even I like reading about these things even some of it comes in myth and legends but don't you think it's amazing but to be honest I wish I could be an elf really. I know these different kind of elves in some folktales and sorry I'm going back too it but I think it would be cool even thinking about it. Their are people that want to be humanoid animals but I bet you know where I'm going with this.
Speaking of which but I feel like my luck is running out lately. I'm not joking but I been hitting some lucky hits lately even explaining person few things about a subject I don't think I would like to get back into but as I think about it. I feel like i screwing up. I gave out my location but I don't think they could find me either way. It doesn't matter. . . even I got into an argument about the word 'nor' as person said "That's a big word." I got mad when it's not even a huge word to say but use it like you're smart? I don't even but only because this person thinks he/she in college makes me want to laugh even in the end of the movie I was talking about he/she didn't notice that they were tooth fairy-- damn fairies.
Anyway I had fun even if you are still reading I still want to know how you do it? It kind of bugs me that you are reading this because you want to either punish yourself or you enjoy reading about my life and issue I don't even moment too.
I guess the jokes on me then. Still do you think this was a good time even I lied to someone I was gonna take a nap but turns out I was getting invited to the movies. I feel bad but I don't think it matters anymore even person driving was bad-ish but I do not understand why I'm still talking about it. Maybe I'm just amazed really even all I really want to talk about is how I do not want to change. I feel like people want me to change but I am who I am even if they would hate my geeky-ness.

Sorry but I don't think I have anything else to write about even I know you do not enjoy this.
~ayame