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I just turned 29 this past weekend. Sadly, not many people did wish me a happy birthday. Addie was the first person, she made sure of that, she texted at almost 1:00 am. Juana, a co-worker of mine did later. And some mystery number did too, not sure who.

That night, I was pretty drunk, and I told my brother how I felt about Addie, it wasn't a positive thing to say. I must say, he was shocked at my confession. The guy will never understand my feelings, and tried to convince me that I shouldn't feel the way I do. But he never was in the situation I am in.

BTW, there will be no second date between me and Cynthia. I have no clue why, but she refuses to talk to me now. Even though I should be upset, but at this point of my life, I just don't care. It's her loss, not mine.

I am keeping in touch with another girl who wants to meet me later. A girl named Olamide Lawson. However, I don't feel that we will be dating very long if at all. I can tell that she will not be interested in a guy like me.

Since Natasha didn't say anything to me in over a week (not even a happy birthday) I have decided to stop trying to give back her bangle, and keep it. I have locked both the bangle and the bracelet she gave me along with the photos of us in a treasure box. This will symbolize my triumph with this girl, and I will keep these prized trophies as long as I live.

Since I am 29 years old now, I have made some important decisions in my life. I have already deleted all of my dating accounts, and I will no longer be searching for another person. If someone comes along before I am 30, then so be it, but I have called off the search. I am still looking for a second job so I can buy my car, and save up for my operation. After my 30th birthday, I will no longer be friends with Addie. Nothing will change these decisions.