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Today I ran across something off. Thinking of my date last night, Nina said that she wants to be my friend. But she said it in a seductive and sexy way. We also talked about things that does not seem like subjects that friends get into. Thinking back at other examples; Natasha being the best example; I am starting to realize that the idea of "friendship" has taken up a whole new meaning.
There seems to be two kinds of "Friends" that exists now. Friends that would define what me and Addie were at one point in time. And this new (or not so new, but I was oblivious to it's existence) type of friend seems to be like some sort of "pre-girlfriend" relationship. When Nina and I were talking about whether or not we were single, she also added that if I had any "friends" referring to female friends. Naturally I said no, because me and Addie are no longer friends. But I really don't think that is what she meant now that I think about it.
When I think about it hard enough, I realize that even though I have learned a great deal about relationships, I still know next to nothing about it. Relationships has evolved to have an extra step that determines if you and someone will be together. There is this "friendship" stage that has dating and sex involved. Actual dating in a girlfriend level seems to have evolved to a "marriage" level where you live together and have kids. Whatever is above that is now mysterious territory.
And as I think about it now, I think that may be what made me and Natasha go our separate ways. I was living under a rock practically my whole life, and now I am coming out to a world that has changed and evolved. I am now the black sheep in a white flock. Me and Natasha could not understand one another, and we just had this odd broken relationship that we didn't know what to do with.
The current problem now is that I don't know who to talk to about this issue. Everyone I know still lives in the age my brain is stuck in, and I can't talk about this with Nina because she might think I am weird. But then again, I may not have a choice. If this issue is not corrected, I may lose her interest anyway.