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WELL ITS 4 IN THE MORNING......NOTHING LEFT TO DO JUST WAITING TO WAKE UP AROUND 5PM TO THE SCREAMS OF JENNIFER........WHO IS JENNIFER TO ME YOU MAY ASK? WELL SHES A GOOD FRIEND OF MINE MAYBE LIKE ANOTHER SISTER.....SHE UNDERSTANDS......WERE THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE FROM EACH OTHER BUT YET WERE BEST FRIENDS :3 IVE KNOWN HER SINCE I WAS LIKE 3 BACK THEN I WAS EVEN A REBEL I RAN AROUND OUTSIDE AND WELL YEAH I REMEMBER KICKING DIRT AT HER.......BUT YOU KNO I JUST HOPE SHE DOESN'T REMEMBER ANY OF THAT.....YEP IM JUST SITTING HERE MY a** IS NUMB MY BROTHER IS SLEEPING IN MY ROOM CUZ HE COULDN'T FIND A PLACE TO SLEEP TONIGHT WELL IM SORTA OK WITH IT I MEAN HES NOT SUPPOSE TO BE HERE....BUT ID WORRY TOO MUCH FOR HIM....GOD IM SOO SOFT......IM TIRED......HMM I STILL HAVE THOSE THOUGHTS OF SUICIDE....YEAH WHILE SITTING AND STARING AT A TROLL PICTURE I WAS THINKING OF POISONING MYSELF WITH CLOROX.. HMM I MEAN SOO MANY WAYS TO KILL YOURSELF.........AND I WONDER WHEN PEOPLE DO COMMIT SUICIDE BY HANDING THEMSELVES INDOORS WERE DO THEY FIND THE TIME TO MAKE THE ROPE AND A PLACE TO PUT IT......THE 3 TIMES IVE TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE IVE TRIED RAT POISON, SHOOTING MYSELF AND SLICING MY WRIST AND EVERY SINGLE TIME IVE TRIED MY PARENTS HAPPEN TO WALK ******** ANOTHER DAY OF BOXING TODAY......I HATE IT THERE THEY WORK ME TO THE POINT WERE I VOMIT......EH WELL ANYTHING TO KEEP ME FROM ******** MY LIFE UP ANYMORE THAN I ALREADY DID SAYS MY TRAINER HMM NEVER MENTIONED HIS NAME BEFORE.....WELL HIS NAME IS SAM..........TO ME I THINK OF HIM AS SON OF SAM BECAUSE TO ME HE HAS A FACE OF A MURDERER I LOOK TO HIM AS A HOLD BACK I HATE HIS GUTS HE HATES MINE...........THATS ALL I HAVE TO SAT ABOUT HIM......MEH I WANT MOUNTAIN DEW THE 7 11 IS SOO CLOSE BUT THIS DAMN FEVER.....HAH MY DOG JUST PEEKED AROUND THE CORNER OF THE HALL TO SEE WHAT I WAS DOING....HMM MAYBE I WONT GO TO BOXING ******** BUT IM GUNNU HAVE TO DEAL WITH SAM -.- JUDAS RAY JOSE JOSEPH PHIL PETER HMM JUST RANDOM NAMES I MY MIND........WELL IF YOU RLLY FOUND THIS ENTERTAINING.................IM SUPRISED YOUR STILL WRITING LAURA YOU HATE TO WRITE........YOUR NOT GOOD AT ANYTHING.........OH HOW I WANT TO PLAY GUITAR HERO............I TRULY HATE MY LIFE IM WRITING THIS LIKE IF IT WERE A STORY....WHY WONT I STOP....
I CANT STOP.......................WELL I SPENT 30 MIN ON THIS I THINK ITS TIME TO SEND MY BROTHER OUT BEFORE MY DAD WAKES UP AND CALLS THE COPS OF SOMETHING TILL THEN.............