NOTE: This is kinda of a random short story that kinda mixes with my feelings right now. so in away its kinda true but all a story. So just think of it that way. And tell me what you think if you want. Sorry that its kinda sad.. But truthfully its really hard to move on when you need hear 3 little words from someone. and then you lose them and it never sounds same from someone else. But it makes your day or your week when they say they still love you.
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I still love you, he whispered the words ever so softly and his hand whipped the painful tears away. Her heart broke all over again; as she thought about how they use to be, she wanted to throw her arms around him and cry, till she couldn’t any more. But she stayed strong and watched as he walked away right into another girl arms. They waved goodbye and left.
She fell to her knees crying her re-broken heart out till she felt arms go around her. She looked up to see a guy who always accepts her even when she won’t be his. He just smiled a little and held her close and she sobbed harder into his shoulder. Between each gasps of breath she could hear him singing lightly to her, always saying I love you ever now and then. She cried for hours. Not sure what to do or what to say anymore.
She lost her first love and now she couldn’t decided if this was her second or if she just need to hear those words...
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She licks her lips as she writes everything down all her feelings. She still doesn’t know what to do. She wishes she could take all the wrong she did to her love and never had it happen. It was all her fault she rolled the words around in her head every time she thought about him. Closing her eyes she smiles a little. “She is better then I ever could be and she loves him more” she whispers watching the ink smug as tears tickled down her face.
Later on at night she would lie in his arms and listen to every sweet word her said and she would try her hardest to say things back. “I love you Baby, forever. You are my sun and my starts, My world” he whispered and she tried not to cry as she said “I love you to….” She gulped a little then was happy when he pressed his lips to hers. She closed her eyes picturing it was her loves sweet, soft lips on hers. The way it use to be.
She would play the games and speak the words he wanted to hear just so she could feel wanted again. So she could feel like she was loved once again. She knew she was but she really just need her love to make all the pain disappear again, but she would never say it. She felt so weak after being so strong; after trying to move on. But she no knows that no matter how hard she tries she never will be fine without him. Even as another takes his place every now and then..
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