it's impossible to tell you my struggles, and my feelings. you seem to be happy the way you are and don't want to have to deal with my life, and my hurting. i'm the kind of person that will allow anyone to have their happiness and let mine go. i let mine go to let you be happy, but when is it my turn to be happy ? when do i finally get to smile ? when do i get to say ' i love living life' ? i wish i knew, but i give more than i take. I'm giving you the chance to be happy, while i suffer the conciquences. i cry every night with a broken heart because the feelings are being kept inside, because i don't want anyone else but you to listen, but you don't have the time to. i wish things where different when we could both be happy, but that won't happen. our time is running out, childhood will have its break, and turn into adulthood when we forget our past and look to the future. i wish i could enjoy every moment, but i can't without thinking that you won't be happy, or you'll wish it were different. people are telling me to let you go so you can be happy, and all i want is to be able to see you smile every day not having to think of the hard times of life. live these last moments to the fullest, while i find my way out of my misery. i'll do the best i can without you by my side. i'm giving you the chance to be happy, so please oh please take advantage of it so i know it was the best choice i ever made.
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