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Hopes and dreams.
I started out with you, you see?
We had plans for our life.
Yes we had.
I wanted to reach the sky...so blue.
You wanted to reach the stars.
But...then a tragedy had to come by sooner than what we had planned.
No in fact, it wasn't planned.

You left too soon.
You left way away from me and you.
You betrayed yourself, saying it was the best for you.
That's a lie, and you know it.
Oh my...
Don't say it again....
It was all too soon...
For me.

Nowadays I stare up into an empty sky...
The clouds disappear before my eyes, no joke...
A photograph...and memories past...that have passed on by.
I still can't accept this though...
Why didn't you cry?
You had dreams of your very own...
And all you did was laugh and smile on your days...
That were left in sorrow.
Saying you're sorry...
Crying...you're afraid...
You could told me sooner...

But I guess...you were ashamed.

We have pride in ourselves.
There are things we can't do.
I still feel the faint warmth of you on my skin...
But my dreams have ended for you.
Why they have, is because there is no meaning in doing it at all.
If you're not there to cheer me, if you're not there to hold me...
It's not worth fighting for.
You may have laid in peace, you may be at your rest.
But while you sleep I'm far awake in this sad, sad...trance.

You left too soon.
You left way away from me and you.
You betrayed yourself, saying it was the best for you.
That's a lie, and you know it.
Oh my...
Don't say it again....
It was all too soon...
For me.

Why it had to happen, I don't know.
Why we didn't see it coming, we were too slow.
Why you left me hanging, not bringing me along...
I can't do this on my own.
You were my guide and my home.
Sitting on the floor...
Still cold and adorned....
I miss you way too much...
I guess it's just faint...but I...
I might as well confess to you that I didn't want you to really die.

It's too lonely.
It's too dark.
Who could stand such loneliness at heart?
You're not here to tell me you'll be there when I'm needy.

Cancer...
That constellation in the sky hidden in the stars...
Cancer...
That astrological sign...
I hate it, I hate them...
Because they had to take you away from me...
I hate them, I hate it....
Because they stole your dreams...
I still remember the last night of December...

I was holding your hand...
You just smiled and told me...
It was not some depressing dream...
It was plain reality.
Your eyes dimmed before my own...
Your rosy cheeks grew so cold...
Your soft hands withered at the touch...
As the clock struck twelve, it was all over...
In the end...I lost you...
Who would've thought it'd hurt...

So damn much?

It was all too soon for....me...