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So today it was a very lonely day but it was not a really bad day. I'm progressing myself in my co-op course and in business. I am definatly doing more work than last semester and I have to keep it up. My other course on the other hand still needs fixing! I can't believe they are messing up this bad. I really hope this gets fixed as soon as possible because I can't fall behind more than I already did. When I came home from school things were going okay up untill now. Me and my girlfriend...well ******** the long story..long story short is she feels bad for me wanting to do something with her that shes actually going to just lay in bed so that she wont be doing something fun. Now that does not make sense at all because I want her to have fun, bu in her mind she thinks I want to control her and make her really bored. She says ohhh thats not true, but fact is, I can read my girlfrind more than anyone in this world and i know this will be used against me saying that I trap her and make her really bored when I'm actually trying to let her do some fun things. I really hate myself and to be honest I wish I had one of those ******** universal remote controls that can pause and rewind so I can go back in time and just shut my god damn mouth and pause the world whenever I need a breather. Also pause the world to beat the s**t out of punks who like to mess with kids, but thats besides the point. I am going to keep attempting to gether to do whatever she wants and try to make her happy. If it does not work...I can almost garantee that shes going to be VERY sad all week and eventually just barely talk to me. Once again today I saw my phycologist. He saw me in our "smoking pit" today when I was hanging out with some friends. He thought I was actually smoking so he gave me this big assed lecture about it and he did not beleve I was not doing it. I told him to just ******** off once in a while and if he does not try and help my stress and just make it worse, maybe I will start smoking in honor of him...Jesus Christ. My inernational business teacher got ingaged this past weekend and all I could think about all period is how bad I wish me and my girlfriend had something special like that, but on a smaller scale ofcourse. Today at the end of the day I also accidently hit a gang member in our school by the shoulder as I walked by. He turned around as called me an a*****e and followed me. I did not know he was talking to me so I just kept walking. He definatly saw my face...and gangs...are not fun to deal with at all. I am a bit scared for school tomorrow but to be honest..I do have a friend n a gang...and I am VERY well protected. Although I might get my butt kicked one day, but they will get it three times worse some other time. I've been offered a bandana before and refused to take it. To take a bandana in our society means A LOT. If you take that you are basically signing a contract with them. Youre involved in everything they do, and to be honest...I am NOTHING like one of them. I am not a druggie crime spree kid. I'VE NEVER EVEN BEEN IN A REAL FIGHT! But I do consider myself lucky that I'm protected. I can only hope for the best tomorrow, because damn baby! It's a brand new day!

End of entry #7

Luke. J. Hollis.