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Okay so...The past couple ofdays have been rather normal. I've been able to relax a bit and this week is not march break, so I have a whole week of relaxing. Yesterday I got rather furstrated with myself and took a broken bottle to my arm. I'm okay and now that I look back on it...probably wasnt a great idea. Today I got accepted yet into another program at college. I got accepted for police foundations. Althought that is exactly the course I want..I am holding off on it and going to school for business, give myself time to get in shape and get ready for it. It's kind of excieting knowing that I'm able to get into the course, so that gives me a boost of energy to continue with school. This week I don't even have a single plan set out. Whoever wants to chill I'll chill with, and I'm going to as flexible as possible. My last weigh in was a while ago at 253. I'm now 250 Thats very upsetting considering it's been so long...I can't seem to lose this damn weight. It's so hard...but I guess I just have to keep trying and trying and trying. Last week, yet again I saw a police officer at my school looking for speeders coming by. I hung out with him for about 30 mins and we just talked about policing. He made my day, he talked to me about myfuture and how it's just a great career to be into. My girlfriend is going through a very rough time right now...For some reason shes always had it in her head that she ugly...Honestly..She ******** stunning and won't even believe it..probably why she is with me. She went dress shopping yesterday..and well she had a little problem. Her breasts are..well huge. I won't say why cause it's kinda personal..but anyways. She couldn't find a dress because her breasts are too big. She thinks she so fat...whn really she has a normal tummy and it looks great and just big boobs...and with me..that isn't a problem AT ALL. It wouldn't be for most guys. She bashes herself all the time and calls herself ugly...but shes wrong. Shes so good looking and I can't even believe it. Why won't she...I don't think her mind will ever be changed unless some famous singer or some famous dude told her shes wonderful....I'm just a boyfriend.

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Luke. J. Hollis