Saturday night with him was. . .nice. He's actully starting to grow on me, so quickly that I didnt want him leave.
We didnt do much, didnt go anywhere, just talked. On the big swing infront of the house, that had room for two others, with hoodies that kept us warm from the chilly air. His shoulder next to mine, felt strong. His hands, playing with my cool soft one, felt rough, like an worker--an farmer's. Our skin different was clear, unsuprisingly, I was the light fair one, his was the tan rich one.
I somewhat bothers me, that I'm starting to like him so quickly, so effortlessly..that the few pass day, my thoughts have been comsume of him, my heart skips the moment I'm asked of him, I cursed at myself for missing a call from him.
At the end of that night, he ask if I would what to be his girlfriend, and I silently couldnt believe that part of me wanted to yes. So soon. To soon. "Ummm." was my main answer, "si peor no" I kidded. Yes but no. HA! twisted Thinking back, I'm gald I didnt give him a straight answer, and stayed on the 'Friend' level. If anything I dont want to be won over so easily. no forget that. Mainly. I dont want to trust--Let anyone in so easily. I cant allow my heart melt over other guy, that isnt going to be there for me. Again. cry
It's taken me eight months to heal from the other one. The one I thought was forever mine love. The one that I allowed into my heart for the first time. In the end he's given me Hell to dissolve any good light that I showerd him in. So we're even I guess. That one is dead to me. Just a ghost that I silently do wish to visit, but has no headstone to place my flowers.
Conclusion; build an emotional prove wall around my heart, Pray for angels to help me guard it, and note to them "Dont follow the buttflies!"
PS
Math Class was boring, alot of intodution.
