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Fragmented Self who wanders through life like a dreamer and wades through the river of dreams as though it were the only truth left in this world
This Is Not A Home
Spiraling
The twist of red and white
Oh Peppermint, surely you know
The dream she whispers is so sweet,
melting in my lips
fresh
...
but there is no sweetness
no spiraling love for me
When this saddness has hit me
My storage is empty of my love
Peppermint is no where to be had
How sad


I wish I could go get some candy canes or peppermint bark. I need something as a lift me up tonight/today. I think I would so much less stressed out if I knew I didn't have to go to vb practice but I have to. I don't want to be at the tournament. I need a weekend off but if I don't go, I know I will be punished. I know I will get less playing time than I already do and I know that I will make more of a gap between me and the girls.

I can't go to the store until Saturday or Friday. I don't allow myself to go when I haven't slept due to the fear of collapsing. I don't know if I've ever told anyone but I have only fainted or collapsed once in my life. When I had my gums cut I was walking around the kitchen and felt woozy then grabbed the chair to sit in it and tumbled over, trying to take the chair with me. I knew I was gonna fall and said something so someone was there for me when I woke up. That was scary! SO F'IN SCARY for me >.<

Roleplaying is making my life sparkly out of all this darkness. So, BRING IT ON! I made prettyful posts and find awesome characters to play as. I'm just amazing ^.< Heh. I don't even mind so much that the people are semi-literate. >///////< Cause I think having my posts long even though they post a little makes them guilty so they post more than they usually would. >.< Makes me happy when they do... there are two people I want to quit the rp though... they don't have very good characters and don't have a clue when they do post. CRAPPY POSTS!

Lawlz a palooopooooza. I bought the Cherry Blossom to cheer myself up a bit tonight. I shall be alright. My roommate's friend is gonna check my comp tomorrow... maybe then I won't need my Dad to come down. He's pissed at me. Or very frustrated. Either way, he's not in a good mood and I don't want to do anything or be with him right now. I don't want to be trouble o^o -holds back the tears- I don't want to be a burden to him! I'm sorry! >.< Don't be mad at me! Please...

I turned in my change of major form so hopefully, it'll all be offical by the time registration comes around. I already paid my money and have some money now for food. I ordered a pizza today since I was so upset. I needed comfort food. o^o Boo! LIFE SUCKS






User Comments: [1]
Angulogirl
Community Member





Fri Dec 04, 2009 @ 03:10am


I saved a candy cane for you
by the by
if it helps....


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