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I want to sing out with joy, making all the pain go away I want to smile happiness, making all the scars fade.

If only I could do that. But, I only feel broken, empty inside. Nobody to care. I who I used to be. Liegh. Whatever happened to me. Leigh. I used to always be happy, be talkitive, not where at least everyone hated me. I want to know where that one girl went. Leigh. Yes that's the name I once used. Now, I can't, locked up, faded away. Whatever happened? I used to be loved. Now I get one litlle look and they run. 'The Monster' of so I called it. 'The Monster' wants to creep up and pounce on anyone that comes near me. It earges me to let it out, let it have freedome. I say no, I don't want to go down the same path as I did before, I just want to get back up on my feet, pick myself up, be that one girl I used to be. Leigh. I want to be back, stronger, and better. I don't want to live in the dark anymore, I want to live in the light again, I want all my old freinds back, I need, I need.... I need everything back, but, 'The Monster'. Leigh. Back in place, away from the nightmares. Help is what I need, help is more than what I want, I want back on my feet to that one I used to be. Leigh. She used to be so amazing, until she became 'The Monster'. Leigh. Yes her, nobody would've ever guessed what she did. Leigh.