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Dear Journal,

How can I express how my life treats me. I could do so much, but everything I do seems to make people hate me more, even when I have done nothing wrong.

You can't cry, or admit to something being wrong anymore without someone saying you're doing it for attention! You can't feel like life is pointless without being called Emo.

You can't even honestly tell someone Who Has Asked you what's wrong, without them hating you for it later like you want attention.

WE DIDNT ASK FOR YOU TO ASK US WHAT'S WRONG!

Half the time, we don't want to answer so they drag it out of us!

I openly admit my problems for I figure if they can't be my friend with me having these problems, then they aren't worth being friends with, because they'd only be friends with the me THEY want.

You know how I feel when it comes to people? I have one good friend! One friend I count on at school, because she is there, and she helps me out.

I can't even get a lab partner in science class. We had an even amount of people, and we were aloud one partner. GUESS WHAT!?

I didn't get a partner! So you know, yes I cried. It hurts. It happens every time.

I now have to work in the back room of my class for projects because I feel so ashamed of myself, like I have done something so hidious that everyone despises me for it!


I'm tired people. I spend every day alone when I'm not at school.

I have tried to go out, I used to go out a few nights a week. Tried to make friends, but they hated me like everyone else.

Why? Cause I'm shy? I'm honest? I'm not some whore looking to get laid!?

I know some say, older men are those who lie... But they are the ones who actually understand me. They never try anything, and understand the age difference. I have more adult friends then teenage friends my own age.

I'm sixteen, said to be good looking, but i have never kissed a guy or had a boyfriend... I hardly have many friends who are boys...

Life is unfair in so many ways. I could go on about my past, but I wont...Cause I fear you'd all hate me for that.


W.D Oni






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[-I.R.S.m.R.t-]
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commentCommented on: Mon Jan 16, 2006 @ 04:39am
If someone asks you 'what's wrong' you should answer truthfully. Then you can accurately judge if they are worth your time or not. If you do not answer truthfully, the lies will amount to people not liking you. If you don't want to answer, say so. Don't make something up. Honesty is the best way to build trust and bonds of friendship.
I don't hate you, and I'm a guy...


commentCommented on: Mon May 15, 2006 @ 10:23pm
o my gosh... you are perfect! i would be your boyfriednd if i met you! (why do i only meet the good people on the inernet?!?!?!?) you seem like a reely nice person to me! (from what i've read here)



Hittokiri Batosai
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commentCommented on: Wed Jul 26, 2006 @ 06:02am
sweatdrop Sad. Hey, stop being mean. And I can be your guy friend! xp blaugh blaugh blaugh blaugh domokun


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