Time really does fly you know? I bet you guy do... anyway, I been and haven't been busy with thoughs like always. I sometime feel like there a gun aim behide my head. Just waiting for the trigger to be pulled.
I don't know but I feel sick. Not a good sick but a bad sick. My lack of sleep is killing me. I don't know why? I sleep and wake up with a nightmare that just make me want to scream. Time like those are just sad really. I bet you my life that you'll not care.
I know that as a fact cause everyone with up to me and said. "Who cares? No one care about you. They want you to die..."
For that I'm scared for myself and I'm getting tired of taking meds.
Anyway that what going on my head. Between that I'm not eating right and my brother getting merry. I'm in shock about it... I don't think I want to go see him. I'll be a target of being hated for dis-honor the family name again.
Now? Maybe when as I think to much. Like the other day I with to see year one at the cheap-O movie place. I saw a small pick for Eureka 7... the movie? I'm really not going to ask if I do then it not going to add up again.
So like always... this computer is acting like an a*s. doesn't let me type even I do feel like falling and have nothing to caught me. Maybe cause it called faint. No, it not called faint but lost in though while someone doesn't really see the action of when?
Now i'm confusing myself.
I'm going to stop as I don't feel like thining about it and maybe I might eat something.
~Ayame
ps
where the other 20% D:
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