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TLLF: Chapter 3 Part 5 (End of Chapter 3)


Lust and Forgiveness


The dark figure slowly and silently walked up to Deidara and kneeled behind him. He lifted his cold hand and placed it on Deidara’s right shoulder. Deidara’s eyes widened as he quickly turned around to see who had touched him.
“ I-Itachi…?!” Deidara said in a puzzled tone. “ What…What are you doing here?” Asked Deidara. Itachi sat silently for awhile, wearing a fake, kind smile.
“ Why Deidara-kun… I’m here to comfort you…” Itachi said as he stroked Deidara’s face. Deidara pushed Itachi’s hand away and was backed agents the side of his bed. “ You don’t have to run away from me Deidara-kun…” Itachi said, “ You must be so hurt form what Sasori did to you… You poor thing.” Itachi stroked Deidara’s face again. Deidara did not pull away. All he wanted was to be wanted by someone. Deidara looked at Itachi with tear-stained eyes. Itachi looked at Deidara and smiled again. “ Will you allow me to comfort you…?” asked Itachi. Deidara looked into Itachi’s red and black eyes. He became enchanted in Itachi’s lie and nodded to him in approval. Itachi smirked and pulled Deidara against him. His hands searched Deidara’s body and pulled Deidara’s lower back closer. Deidara felt uncomfortable. He tried to move but Itachi held on to tight.
“ Why… Why are you doing this?” Deidara asked in a slight whisper. Itachi pulled Deidara’s hair, tilting Deidara’s head up. He leaned forward to Deidara’s neck and licked it.
“ Because…I want you…” Itachi said. He continued to kiss Deidara’s neck, sucking on it occasionally. Deidara couldn’t speak. His mind swirled in a haze. He didn’t seem to enjoy the feeling and he tried again to make some space between himself and Itachi. Itachi noticed and tightened his grip on Deidara. His mouth sucked hard on Deidara’s neck, and then he pulled away. There was a small red mark that was left. Itachi let Deidara’s head come forward. Itachi’s eyes were full of lust as he held Deidara’s head close to his. He licked Deidara’s lower lip. “ Forget about Sasori…and come into me…” Itachi whispered. Deidara didn’t say anything. He was falling further into Itachi’s spell. His body was loose and he allowed himself to be taken. Something in his mind told him this wasn’t right, but that feeling was deep inside his head. Deidara looked at Itachi who was so close to his mouth. He wanted it. He wanted to forget his pain. Itachi smirked again and kissed Deidara fiercely and deeply. He sucked the air out of Deidara and slid his hand under Deidara’s shirt. Deidara couldn’t breathe but he didn’t pull away. His eye’s turned red like Itachi’s as he fell deeper into the spell. Deidara’s hands raised and began to undo Itachi’s cloak. It fell to the floor and landed in a pile behind Itachi’s body. Itachi stopped kissing Deidara and took the bottom of Deidara’s shirt in his mouth. He pulled and took Deidara’s shirt off. Deidara shivered agents the sudden chill of the air. Deidara’s thought came back to him. He again tried to part from Itachi.
“ D-don’t… s-stop…” Deidara stuttered. Itachi lifted Deidara up and put him on the bed. He climbed on top of him and looked him in the eyes. The black in Itachi’s eyes spun around casting Deidara deeper into his spell. Deidara’s mind became dizzy and he wasn’t able to control himself. Deidara’s eyes now fully matched Itachi’s and lust began to grow in Deidara’s heart. Once Itachi knew Deidara was helpless against him, he took off his own shirt. He looked at the door. It was unlocked so he used his chakra to lock it. Itachi turned back to Deidara. His lustful eyes gazed into Deidara’s. Deidara gazed back expressionless. He was Itachi’s slave. Itachi made an evil smirk as he turned off the light. In the darkness, Itachi and Deidara’s eyes glowed. Itachi laughed with every sign of evil. That night, Deidara did things with Itachi that he would soon regret. Even though Deidara’s mind was in a haze, he knew exactly what was happening and for that moment he wanted it. He also realized that Itachi and Sasori were completely different. Sasori was soft and gentle, while Itachi was hard and rough. Itachi did whatever he pleased with Deidara’s body as the night went on. Deidara participated just as much as Itachi. The lust in his heart grew and made him do more. He felt so much and for a time, he was the one forcing Itachi into his ways. Itachi snickered and made the spell go deeper. Deidara let himself fall deeper into the darkness. Unspeakable things happened that night. Finally they both fell asleep together. Deidara’s skin was rubbed raw and Itachi’s was rough. Itachi slept on top of Deidara with is legs tangled with Deidara’s. Deidara’s hand’s were tied above him on the bedpost and was being crushed by the weight of Itachi. The air was heavy with the bitter sent of lust and the shadows in the corners extended further in. The air was cold and no sound was made. There was an evil presence that entered Deidara’s heart, chilling him to the core.
The next morning, Itachi woke up. He looked at Deidara and smirked. Deidara had come to him and he knew that the scars would never heal. He climbed out of the bed and put all his clothes back on. He was satisfied with what he had done. He had forever ruined the main course of Deidara and Sasori’s life. He purposely put himself between them. He smiled to himself. Itachi wiped his lips and snickered. He looked back at the cursed body of Deidara and walked up to it. “ Well, well…you screwed yourself didn’t you kid. You are now scared for life…how foolish…” Itachi said. He snickered then left the room. He kept the room unlocked and he walked down the hall to his own room. About an hour later Deidara woke up. His body was stiff and tightened. He looked down at himself and his body was covered in red marks. Deidara noticed that he had no clothes on and he sat up to cover himself. When he did, he felt a sudden pain in his backside. He looked down at his hands and saw them with broken rope draping around them. He looked down at himself as his mind raced. No…what have I done! My body shows all the signs of… Deidara began to cry. He wiped away the tears and got out of the bed. He had a hard, painful time staying to stand, and it hurt him to walk. He staggered to pick up his clothes, but he managed to put them on. Once he was dressed, he looked at his face in his mirror and was shocked at what he saw. His face looked stoned and his neck was covered in red marks as well as his body. His hair was a mess and there was raw circle marks on his wrists from the rope. Deidara started to cry. He covered his mouth as he stared at his reflection. He then touched his heart. It was beating fast and it felt like it was going to come out. Deidara looked at his reflection again and shook his head. He ran to his bathroom and tried to fix himself up. He washed his face and he brushed his hair. He managed to get himself looking normal, but the feeling of guilt lured in his heart. This time he had betrayed Sasori. Deidara tried to hold back the tears, but the memory of Sasori and what he had done with Itachi haunted his mind. He deeply regretted what he had done. Itachi had taken advantage of him and there was no one he could tell. He desperately wanted to go back with Sasori, but was afraid that Sasori still hated him. Another fear was what Sasori would say or do when he told him what had happened with Itachi. Deidara wiped his tears away and headed toward his door. The pain in his legs had started to fade and it was easier to walk. He made it to the door and started to walk to the main room. When he walked in he saw Sasori and sitting next to Sasori was Itachi. They were in deep conversation about something Deidara couldn’t hear. Sasori looked up and saw Deidara. Sasori’s face imminently turned depressed and he looked away. Deidara’s heart throbbed with pain and he held back his tears. Itachi looked back and saw Deidara. He smirked then turned back to Sasori. He leaned into Sasori’s ear and whispered something. Deidara couldn’t hear it but he grew worried when he saw Sasori’s eyes widen the more Itachi whispered. When Itachi was finished, Sasori slowly turned his head and looked at Deidara with a shocked expression on his face. Deidara stood unmoving. He had no idea what to do. Sasori’s face turned sad the longer he looked at Deidara. Then, Deidara saw a tear fall from Sasori’s eyes. Sasori turned back to Itachi and whispered something back. Deidara couldn’t take anymore of the suspense.
“ Master Sasori…” Deidara said. Sasori stopped talking to Itachi and turned around. There was silence.
“ What kid…” Sasori finally said. Deidara’s face sloped into sadness. Sasori’s face had turned hard and angry.
“ Master Sasori…” Deidara started “ Can I talk to you…alone?” There was a long silence from Sasori. His eyes turned cold and Itachi watched in amusement. Sasori glared at Deidara.
“ This better not waste my time.” Sasori said as he stood up and walked to Deidara. They both headed down the hall when Sasori stopped halfway. “ Get it over with. I already know what happened with you and Itachi.” Sasori said in a pained, angry voice. Deidara looked at Sasori and tears started down his eyes again.
“ Danna…” Deidara started.
“ Don’t call me that anymore! Just say what you need to say then leave!” Sasori yelled. Deidara started again.
“ Sasori, I had no control over what happened. Itachi just…he put me under some kind of spell and…I did things, I never would have done. I’m asking your forgiveness.” Deidara said. Sasori looked at Deidara.
“ I already know about the spell. I know what Itachi had in mind. What shocks me is how you went for it! All it took were some sweet words and a kiss!” Sasori yelled at Deidara with a tightened fist. Deidara’s raged grew as well as his sadness.
“ I don’t see how you would care! You cut us off, so I was free do as I pleased! I don’t understand why you’re so upset!” Deidara yelled back. Sasori hesitated. His face was filled with anger. With out warning Sasori punched Deidara in the face. Deidara was shocked and he looked at Sasori as his cheek started to swell.
“ You idiot! I cut it off to protect you! If we were ever caught again, Pein would have killed us! I did it to protect you because I’m still in love with you!” Sasori yelled through his tears. Deidara was shocked. He stood in silence. Tears streamed down Deidara’s face.
“ Protect me? Sasori… You still love me…” Deidara cried. “ Sasori…” Deidara walked closer to the crying Sasori. He wrapped his arms around him and held him close. Sasori was shaking and he leaned his head on Deidara’s shoulder. “ Danna…Please forgive me…for the thing I have done. I thought I was alone. I still loved you Sasori, but I thought I would never have you again. That’s why when Itachi said those things to me, I fell for his spell. His sweet words and gentle touch reminded me of you. I’m so sorry Sasori…please try to understand.” Deidara said with tears in his eyes. Sasori stood in silence for a minute.
“ Deidara…I forgive you, if you forgive me.” Sasori said quietly. Deidara looked at Sasori and made a small smile.
“ Of course I forgive you Danna, un.” Deidara said. Sasori looked up at Deidara and made a teary smile.
“ Then… I forgive you Deidara-kun.” Sasori said softly. They both embraced each other and kissed softly. Sasori stopped and looked at Deidara with loving eyes. “ Promise me, that we will keep this a secret and this will not interfere with our missions.” He said. Deidara looked at him and nodded.
“ Agreed, un.” Deidara smiled. Sasori smiled back and wiped away his tears. The air seemed to become warmer and a wave of happiness came over the hideout. No one knew why everyone was in a good mood except Sasori and Deidara. They had put a new spell over the Akastuki. Even Pein was in a better mood then usual. The day was bright and the sky was clear. Spring was coming and the land was a new green. The sun shined and soaked light into the ground. Sasori went to his room and made the most beautiful puppet he ever made, and Deidara went to his and developed the most colorful bomb he could make. Everyone else was in the main room playing poker. This time, Pein joined in as well. Everyone in the hideout laughed as Pein beat Itachi at his own game. For once there was nothing but happiness in the Akastuki. But the future held a mission that would test the love and trust of the only two, secret lovers.