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TLLF: Chapter 2 part 3



Confession


Night fell and all was quiet in the Akastuki layer. The only sound was the continuous laughing coming from Hidan’s room where he was performing his nightly, religious rituals. Sasori was laying on his bed looking up at the ceiling and running over what he would say to Deidara in his head. Itachi was lying on his bed resting his eyes. Zetsu was eating a spy that he had caught near the hideout. Keisame was playing with the fish his in his fish tank. A man by the name of Kazuku who had bright green eyes, wore a mask around his face and had stitches all over his body was counting his money. Deidara was sound asleep in his bed and his hands and mouth were grooling. The only girl in the Akastuki, Konan, who had short, blue hair, blue eyes, and wore a white flower in her hair, was cleaning, sharpening her weapons and making new ones out of paper and chakra. The leader, Pein, who had spiked, orange hair and black piercings all over his face was making battle plans in his room. And finally, a new guy by the name of Tobi who wore an orange mask over his face who had not become an Akastuki member yet was humming to himself. The night went on till finally the sun broke over the mountains. Deidara’s alarm clock went off and sent Deidara falling off the bed in shock. Rubbing his head he said “ hmmhh! I don’t remember turning that thing on…!” Deidara turned off his alarm clock and then he saw the puppet, the gas mask, and the note that Sasori had left for him. “ What’s this?” he said. He picked up the note and read it. After he was done, he picked up the puppet. He noticed that it looked like himself. “ Damn,” said Deidara “Sasori-Danna sure does know how to carve.” Deidara began to think about the puppet. What’s with Sasori? Why did he make this thing for me? And what was he doing in my room after I went to sleep…? Deidara’s face was confused. “ I guess I’ll go and thank him then.” Deidara held the puppet in his hand and walked out of his room heading towards Sasori’s room. When he reached Sasori’s room, he knocked on the door. Sasori didn’t expect any one so he sat up on his bed. “ Who is it?” he said.
“ It’s Deidara. Can I come in for a second?” said Deidara. Sasori walked over to the door and opened it. “Yes Deidara?” he said in a confused tone. He looked down and saw the puppet in Deidara’s hands. “ Is something wrong with it…?” he asked.
“Oh no, no. It’s fine. I just came over to thank you for it.” Explained Deidara.
“ Oh ok. Come in.” Sasori opened the door wider for Deidara. Deidara walked in and Sasori pulled him a chair. “So,” said Sasori “ What did you want to talk to me about…?” Deidara shuffled in his seat.
“ Well,” Deidara said “ I just wanted to know why you made this for me. It’s a nice thought, but I just wanted to know why.” Sasori was silent. He looked away and said. “ I just thought it would be useful to you.” Deidara looked at Sasori in a confused expression. “And?” he said. Sasori was quiet for a minute.
“ If I told you… Gah! Never mind. It’s not important.” Sasori looked away. Deidara sat and wondered for a moment. “Danna,” he said, “ You’ve been acting so weird since we got back from that mission. What’s going on? I promise I won’t laugh.” Deidara finished. Sasori sat and thought about it for a minute.
“ You… Promise that you won’t freak out…?” Sasori said quietly. Deidara nodded. “ Fine then. Here it is” Sasori started. “ I… really like you Deidara. A lot.” Sasori looked down and blushed. Deidara sat in silence. Finally he smiled and patted Sasori on the head. “Aww! That’s cute Danna! I like you too. I’m glad that you want to be friends!” Deidara smiled.
“ No, you don’t understand!” Sasori pushed Deidara’s hand away. “ It’s not… It’s not like that…” he said. Sasori’s mind was racing. Damn it! Maybe I shouldn’t have told him! He thought. Deidara just sat there looking at Sasori.
“ Danna… I don’t understand what you mean.” Deidara was confused. He looked at Sasori with a half-tilted head and a confused expression. “ Danna?” Sasori looked up at Deidara.
“ If you don’t understand me, then I guess I have to show you.” Before Deidara had time to react, Sasori took each side of Deidara’s face, pulled Deidara closer, and then kissed him deeply. Deidara’s eyes widened and he pulled away imminently. He tumbled out of his chair and was completely freaked out. “What the f**** Sasori!” he yelled. He wiped his mouth with his sleeve then stood up glaring at Sasori.
“ Deidara! I’m sorry! I really am I didn’t mean to upset you!” Sasori said. Sasori was scared and embarrassed and didn’t know what to do about Deidara’s reaction to his kiss. Deidara was furious. “ What the hell is wrong with you!? Is this another me-looking-like-a-girl joke!?” he yelled.
“ No, no! It’s not that!” explained Sasori. “ That’s really how I feel about you! Please don’t be angry with me!” Deidara was shocked. His face got harder and he made a fist.
“ Sasori! How come you never told me you were gay!” Deidara said.
“ I didn’t know I was until the night of that mission!” replied Sasori: That was the wrong thing to say because Deidara’s face was imminently disgusted.
“ What the hell did you do that night!” yelled Deidara. Sasori’s eyes widened and shook his head.
“ No! No! It wasn’t like that I swear! All I did was touch your hair! That’s it!” Sasori said. He was already standing up and backing away from Deidara. Deidara was advancing toward Sasori with rage and disgust in his eyes.
“ How can you have those feelings for me!? We have only been on one mission together!” he said.
“ Hay! I don’t understand it either ok! I thought if I told you, those feelings would go away! I can’t control what I feel Deidara!” replied Sasori. Deidara was starting to calm down. He crossed his arms and stood there looking at Sasori. Deidara dropped the puppet on the floor at Sasori’s feet.
“ So that’s it huh? That’s the only true reason you made me that puppet. Because you love me…” said Deidara. Sasori flinched at the word “love”, but nevertheless nodded his head slowly and looked away from Deidara. Deidara started to soften up. His eyes were still looking at Sasori and had not softened much.
“Sasori, you know that were both guys.” He said. Sasori said nothing. Deidara took a breath. “ Then you must know that I can’t feel that way for you.” Sasori looked up at Deidara with sad eyes.
“ Yes… I know. Just, try to look at me with those type of eyes.” Sasori said. Deidara was speechless. He picked up the puppet and headed toward the door trying not to look at Sasori’s face. Right before he walked out the door, he caught Sasori’s eye. Sasori looked hurt and sad. Deidara quickly went out the door and ran to his room. Sasori watched the door slam and he lowered his head. A single tear fell and he sat on his bed with his head in his hands.