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I'm not going to lie to anyone; I'm scared. I'm scared of the future. I'm scared of the unknown. And most of all I'm afraid of living. I'm not sure where my life is going to lead me in the future and it's a scary thought. What if I ******** up? What if I'm a failure at all I do? What if I can't provide for myself and/or a family? These questions run through my head every day and it's a scary thought. I can just feel thefear welling up inside of me. I don't know what I can do, but I do know I can never give up. It wouldn't be fair to the ones that I love and who love me back. I just have to remember to be strong, and I am being as strong as I can. Sure, I may shed a few tears every once in a while out of sheer frustration and fear, but I always pull through. Sure, I may have thoughts about giving up, but I know that I would never ever do such a stupid thing like that. There's only a few people here who are helping me, and I believe that I am getting so much better. I owe it to my wonderful friends. They're the people who have made me realize that just because I'm not like anyone else doesn't mean I have to change. I can be myself, and from now on that's what I am going to do.

~Love
Brenda