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I don’t understand what’s happening anymore. I used to think that I had everything planned out, that I understood what life was and how I was supposed to live it. But now, I just don’t know. It seems like all of the progress I’ve made has just gone and now I’m a few steps behind from where I was before. Maybe it has something to do with stress, because I’ve had plenty of that over the past few months. Between my mother’s fighting with me, and the fact that I know she’s been cheating on her boyfriend of eight years now with a man who has nothing and lies. Plus school and my friends; everyone’s changing around me, moving on with life, and here I am stuck as I am. I want to move forward, to a bright day, but somehow it’s just too hard for me to move on. I used to think that whatever happened in my life would make me stronger, but now it feels like it’s weighing me down. I can almost feel how heavy my burden is. It’s gotten really bad lately, to the point where I can’t smile without remembering that there is nothing to smile about. I can’t even sleep anymore. I mean hell, it’s 3 am right now. I’m just so tired and I need this to end soon. I don’t know why this is happening to me and I don’t understand why I just can’t be myself. I just feel so tired, it’s the only way to explain it.