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No matter how hard I try I can never keep someone by my side. Why is is, no matter what I always have I lose hold of the one thing I hold dear. I lose my self when that feeling is missing. I try and try but my attempts are futile. I always lose the one thing I love. I wish to know what true love or true feelings but alas I can't find my true self. I just cry in side my soul wishing to know how to feel. All I want is the one I love to come back to me and make my soul free once more because I will die and never be reincarnated to a better form. I will have ceased my existence on this pitiful world and rot in my soul forever never to see the light of day normally; all I see is black and white. that's the color of my soul.
I sit here wondering what the hell is life for? Is it something I have so people can torture me? Long lost words, whisper slowly, to me. Still can't find what keeps me here. And all this time I've been so hollow inside.And I know you're still there.
I can feel people pulling me down. Watching me.Wanting me to fear you. I can feel them hold me down.Fearing you loving you I won't let them hold me down. I have to break free from this. I do not fear any one no one can scare me. I ******** hate life it should just blow up. Making all my problems vanish from here. That is all I want. I want them all to burn in hell.






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Mr Death-01
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commentCommented on: Sat Dec 13, 2008 @ 09:55pm
i know how u feel but dont let dark thought consume u or i stead of fixing ur problems ull may make them worst


commentCommented on: Sun Dec 14, 2008 @ 03:06am
isn't there someone that u love in this world? maybe 2 people? u should cherish life and everything that goes with it, problems, love, hate, soon you will luv more things in this world and forget the terrible things on life but only if ur truly happy. i want u to be happy....soon you will have to make a choice with 2 things u love, when that time comes choose quickly or u'll lose both, hang on to the things u love most ok.



The_ 13th_ Nitemare
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