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this goes to all who talk to me on gaia, i will be off gaia for a while, an event has occured in wich i might die, no one who doesnt already know is going to, my only words are...u are my life, i screwed up my life, i ******** life over, and i can never give enough words to describe this, seing i love u to some one else one more time will kill me, and when i hung up on u it was because i had a razor in my hand and i herd another sob i was gunna kill myself, i told u that i dont deserve u, i will never bother u again, im totaly cutting myself off from u untill i am sure i can be wat u want me to be, this thing was just the thing to open my eyes, if u are happyer with keegan than with me then i wont interfear, but if there is a single grain of love for me left i will give my life to make u acept it...i love u, i know u dont love me though, i was dead wrong, blinded by wat i thought was true, i made wrong desitions, but im only human, if becoming unhumanly perfect is wat it take then i will do it...