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Well, I've lost myself this month... lost my sanity, my heart, my virginity. Almost everything that made me, me. I had even lost the future which I hoped for. I no longer have anything. Only thing left is my talent and I'm pretty sure it won't take me as far as I hope it would but I still haven't given up in that area. I took losing him soooo hard, that I nearly drowned in my sorrow. I guess when you can see a future with someone, one so great, you kind of don't want to lose it, and you cling on, and fight... no matter how hopeless it is. I fought to the very end, but it was hopeless and I let misery nearly kill me. I have the scars on my body to forever remind me of him. Literal scars, I was so depressed that I was getting drematitises(?if that's how its spelled) all over my body, and kind of left my skin a little disfigured. I guess it will remind me, never let someone hurt me like that, or at least not to wallow in misery. I can't lose myself like this ever again. Never can I let myself sink so low. I even pulled a Britany and chopped off all my hair. :/

I guess I can only climb up from here, and try not to fall again.

Right now, I'm stuck between the mole people and the worms, but at least I passed the fossils, right?