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Happiness with a price:
My head started swirling,my mind going crazy then....nothing.
I felt nothing, I saw nothing, there was nothing for me.
A feeling of joy, a feeling of happiness, yet there was nothing.
Did this feeling come without will, was it just for me?
Not thinking, not hearing, not anything but me.
Why did I skip, why did i flail, why did i not think of u?
Why was it that this bag is green,brown,and blue?
Was it right, was it real, was it what I should truly feel?
Is it good that I breath fast, and my heart ever so quickens?
No, I must calm down, is that a wall?
Yes it is, yes it was, yes it is time to fall.
As my head bangs against it, over and over.
Then pain takes my head and clears it like getting older.
Ye,yes,as the pain sinks in.
My head starts to clear and I can slowly breath out and in.