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My Mind, My Heart, My Everything Wonders. Important Message
I never thought I actually be saying this. But....I'm really jealous of someone on here. After reading this you might find out who it is... ._.
You seem to be a lot on a lot more. Yesterday telling me that no one was on is why you came on. My sweetheart seems to talk to you more then he does me now days. Or...atleast enjoys it more. He doesn't expect much from you, from my knowledge. Did you log on actually because no one was on...or was it to talk to him...
Yet again in my life in which I believe the things most important to me are being taken away.
Because someone better has come along. ....
Yeah I'll admit. I am hurt easily. Especially knowing that my sweetheart has turned to someone else to make him feel better. And the thing is...this person is one of my besties friends.
My sweetheart expects things from me I know. And when refusing to do so. Or just not doing it...makes him upset. Which is why i posted what i did yesterday. Because I'm afriad of making him upset. Which is why I'm afraid of saying no.
It shouldnt be that way right...
More and more everyday I push myself to do something. But that's only because I love him. If he's so afriad of losing me, then why get upset when I dont want to do one thing. And make it seem like he wants nothing more with me. And the only thing he expects from me anymore is that "one thing". Now days when this happens. I can still tell you I love you, and call you sweetheart and everything. However you cannot do the same. If you really did love me, it should come naturally no matter what the situation. That's how I see it.
Now days. I call you sweetheart and tell you I love you more then you do. NOW DAYS. You wanted things to be better. So you deleted all my pictures I sent you. Because you couldnt even look at me. Making things better or like before. Doesnt mean me sending you pictures of myself unclothed and you getting upset when I dont. making things better like before. Was always laughing, always smiling, talking to eachother 4 hours Plus every night and listening to eachother sleep. The waking up an hour or so later then have to get ready for school. But every morning we would wake up our happiest because we had eachother. Wasn't that how it was before...?
So I'm jealous of ______. This person knows who they are. I feel that you have taken the only person important to me away. I'm sorry that I feel this way. I'm not suppose to. But however I do.
Sorry. =(
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