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It seems that ever since I turned 16, my mother has become more strict with me and less on my other siblings. Apparently, I'm the black sheep (but we all know, it's really my older sister) and I need the most discipline. She's always yelling and fighting with me. For a while, she's been saying she's going to transfer me out of my school, because apparently I don't go, which is not true. Yes, I cut every now and then, but I stopped. Yes, I came home once with a monsterous hicky but that doesn't mean I'm having sex. Yes, I came home drunk off my a** at 3 o'clock in the afternoon (not that she about that) but I'm behaving. My grades are higher than they have ever been, if anything, she should be happy I'm happy in my school and with my classes. So, obviously, she's what is bugging me the most at the moment. I don't feel like I'm home anymore, and I feel empty when I'm here. I feel whole when I'm with my friends and with my boyfriend but lately I've been distant. I don't know why? I've lately just been needing to be alone because everything between everyone is different now. Things don't feel the same anymore and I just seem to bonce from group to group within my friends. I just wished Dan never screwed everything up, but I never would have met them if it wasn't for him... b*****d... Oh, well, I still love the b*****d neutral , why am I freakishly loyal?